Except i have made it clear that it is not the primary objective. It's the thing at the top of the mountain, but it's on the same level as everything else really. I won't even let myself attempt to get a SISA before i at least have a job, a car, and an associate degree. That may not sound like much but it's better than being a NEET.
And while I may be a classic example of the whole "grass is greener" mentality, I can't help but observe that (if we're using reddit-tier analogies) you seem to be more of a "crabs in a bucket" guy.
Years ago i would take your messages as an affirmation thing, confirming to me that it doesn't matter. But i have realized that while i won't be living a truly normalfag life ever, i can at least attempt to make the best of my situation.