Basically I made two friends on 'cord, one I'll nickname Bussy and one I'll nickname Jeep. Bussy was a relatively normal hyperactive boy, age 12 like me. Jeep was a bit weird and age 15. Jeep and I would sometimes talk about sex stuff as a joke, like the "astolfo that calls you gay and sucks your dick" plushie thing and Bussy at the time would be like "S-STOP THAT'S WEIRD" until he started warming up to it and found ugh... trap hentai.
He would not shut the fuck up about wishing to be a trap at school and Jeep encouraged it. Eventually he developed dysphoria and started to talk about hating being a boy so Jeep asked him, "Bussy, do you want to be a girl?" and basically peer pressured him into "admitting it", eventually linking the subreddit r/egg_irl. A subreddit for "people who haven't realized they're trans yet"
Looking back, the memes were repetitive and extremely unfunny but the "transmasc" memes got my eye, I'm not even sure why, I wasn't aroused by it but it made me think of being a boy or at least "nonbinary", eventually we both "came out" and we're "trans buddies."
I think I had a moment where I really wanted to be female "again" but the thoughts were pretty entrenched in my subconscious, so they came back a few months later and it's been a cycle of me thinking I should transition every half year or so for a few months. I think I've got it mostly under control now though. It feels like some weird psychosis where I think "maybe I'm a dude despite all evidence against it and transition will do wonders."
View attachment 22397
Here's the type of retarded shit I would annoy my friends with.