Schizo doedoedoes's PERSONAL blog thread (shit nobody cares about & other stuff)

[Gem Control]

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[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

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I would've set my pfp to a thoughjak but this pfp was funnier
good idea doe

 

[NT]

shit everybody cares about
goodnight

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

this blue haired pooner xey/xem was someone i talked to not often but enough to where i knew things about her

update on her as of today
she got me a little gift which was nice, made my day
maybe i'm being a tad bit harsh with this but excluding politics and the interrupting she's okay sometimes
i think about a couple days ago she was feeling really under the weather and had no money to buy a caffeinated drink to get her up and running again so i brought her to the 7/11 by our school and got her something
i guess she IS kinda my friend i don't hate her as much as i did before this year

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

also i think i lost 40 bucks to the wind and to shallow pockets i fucking hate cash bruh

 

[Fortuna]

update on her as of today
she got me a little gift which was nice, made my day
maybe i'm being a tad bit harsh with this but excluding politics and the interrupting she's okay sometimes
i think about a couple days ago she was feeling really under the weather and had no money to buy a caffeinated drink to get her up and running again so i brought her to the 7/11 by our school and got her something
i guess she IS kinda my friend i don't hate her as much as i did before this year

Women listen to men when it comes to politics, if that matters to you.

 

[Fortuna]

Also, what was the gift?

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

Also, what was the gift?

little jade sculpture of an aztec temple she brought from guatemala, no bigger than the palm of my hand
i'm sure xiuhcoyotl would like it but i gotta take a picture of it thougheverbeit

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

i keep setting back the start date of my roid cycle but losing that 40 bucks fucked over the entire thing
i'm gonna have to wait until next week, the roids i want are about 135 bucks and 50 cents with the coupon i'm using
fuck my stupid chud life i want my roids NOW i need to get BIGGER for fucks sake
next week is also when i'm gonna see my girlfriend again after 4 months since the funeral
it sounds edgy but i am genuinely willing to throw away my humanity and my natural status to get bigger and stronger in her name
if my parents find out about my (future) steroid abuse they're gonna put my ass in a mental hospital for at LEAST a month or they'll disown me
i've almost been put in urgent psychiatric care before but it was over trivial teenager shit nothing serious i don't think
if you don't hear from me for a long period of time after next week i probably got caught roiding and either got disowned or am in urgent psychiatric care
if it's the latter and i have internet i'll tell yall about it it'll make for some interesting blogposts

 

[Fortuna]

i've almost been put in urgent psychiatric care before but it was over trivial teenager shit nothing serious i don't think

Am I the only one here who has not been institutionalized before?

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

Am I the only one here who has not been institutionalized before?

it was an "almost" thing and this was like spring of this year and my parents have done enough to where i'm reasonably happy
i got to go to istanbul this summer and see all of the historical sites and battlegrounds that i was so interested in, it's a beautiful city but everything there costs a fuck ton of money if you're a tourist
i love my parents

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

>cob county

 

[SoytanEnthusiast]

ever since my girlfriend was murdered and her killer took her own life right afterwards i've been thinking more and more about ACKing
i guess ironically enough the only things preventing me from doing it are the bernd hanging jaks i don't want to look like and say that as ridiculous as it sounds
i've been having dual enrollment where my high school sends me off to a college campus 5 times a week to take classes and it's taken WAY too much of a toll on me despite the several extra hours of free time contrary to regular high school
there have been a lot of things i've thought about doing to maybe cope and ease out the pain but each "method" has way too many fucking consequences and drawbacks. i've thought about maybe taking lifting more seriously and taking roids and perhaps hope the test boosts my mood and gives me extra gains o algo
and then the other less conventional option would've been to skip classes to go to a nature reserve and unwind but i live in an urban shithole where theres no trees for at least 10 miles out
i know killing myself won't solve shit and it'll just ruin the people around me, but i know for a fact that the person i was before that happened isn't there anymore and there is only a reflection of myself
physically i'm still alive and still breathing but everyone around me noticed a huge change in demeanor and now i don't think any of my friends want to talk to me anymore because of how shitty of a mood i'm always in
even when i'm locked up in my room and able to cope with some shit like games or music or art i get rudely interrupted by my family (who, i do care about) but they're always asking me for trivial shit
"can you grab me some water" or "can you help me with _" which i always do for them but sometimes it gets aggravating when i'm looking at pictures of my late girlfriend and reading her love letters to myself and i get called by my mom to ask to borrow something
life doesn't seem to be getting better, but i can only hope at this point

tl:dr my girlfriend is dead and it sucks

My greatest sympathies

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

only got 90 bucks at the moment and i gotta pay for NAC so my liver doesn't shit itself for the next 8 weeks so that ups the fucking cost to 167 bucks
just gotta hold myself from buying shit this week and i'll almost definitely be able to afford the roids, the NAC, anti-acne shit, and minoxidil in case i have to deal with hair loss
prob gonna gain about 30 pounds which will (finally) put me at 200lbs
>m-muh what about your penis it'll shrink noooo
wasn't going to use it anyway

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

only got 90 bucks at the moment and i gotta pay for NAC so my liver doesn't shit itself for the next 8 weeks so that ups the fucking cost to 167 bucks
just gotta hold myself from buying shit this week and i'll almost definitely be able to afford the roids, the NAC, anti-acne shit, and minoxidil in case i have to deal with hair loss
prob gonna gain about 30 pounds which will (finally) put me at 200lbs
>m-muh what about your penis it'll shrink noooo
wasn't going to use it anyway

if i wait until friday i'll have 220 bucks which i can spend on NAC for 15 dollars, roids for around 153, minoxidil for 15, benzoyl peroxide for 7 bucks
so i'll have around 30 bucks until next week

 

[Meathook Marty]

don't go on roids at sixteen idiot, they'll stunt your growth and make your heart explode

if u want to get big just eat moar protein or something

 

[Xiuhcoyotl]

idk do what mike mentzer did

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

idk do what mike mentzer did

see the issue is i already kinda do this
not down to the exact training regiment but i do extreme training and eat a fuck ton to the point where my muscles will hurt and ache for literal days
i hit chest 4 days ago and it STILL hurts

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

anyway i'm making a 'craft build i made the bases of the houses i'll add the rest when i finish my lift today i got back day today

 

[Xiuhcoyotl]

see the issue is i already kinda do this
not down to the exact training regiment but i do extreme training and eat a fuck ton to the point where my muscles will hurt and ache for literal days
i hit chest 4 days ago and it STILL hurts

drink lots of water o algo