Schizo doedoedoes's PERSONAL blog thread (shit nobody cares about & other stuff)

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

Find xer socials and post it here so soicacas can chud it up.

xes an artfag theres not much to chud up
xer xitter is just reposts too

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

my late girlfriends birthday is soon (oct 21)
what should i bring her for her birthday

 

[baqqrih]

my late girlfriends birthday is soon (oct 21)
what should i bring her for her birthday

Flowers are always a nice present for a girl. Maybe you could get her her favorite ones, if she ever told you what those would be.

 

[Redditor]

my late girlfriends birthday is soon (oct 21)
what should i bring her for her birthday

Two tickets to Spadesons BBC BLACKED Carnival Funland

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

Flowers are always a nice present for a girl. Maybe you could get her her favorite ones, if she ever told you what those would be.

she liked purple flowers because she liked the color purple

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

Two tickets to Spadesons BBC BLACKED Carnival Funland

this sounds like a good idea thank you xister

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

my hatred and anger at the federal government is absolutely immeasurable
there is an infinite amount of reasons for some madman to kill a bunch of glowies right now
the amount of suffering and neglect the federal government has caused is immeasurable and although I believe every individual is innocent by themselves at the same time I hold the belief that any group, organization or institution that is a branch of or associates themselves with the United States federal government deserve to die for their hand in the horrific crimes they have committed towards the people of the United States and the world as a whole
hurricane helene ruined the lives of millions of Americans and the glowie retards in the big office buildings think it is an appropriate time to spend the tax money (OUR money, not theirs) meant for hurricane aid to give to the governments of other countries
why isn't anybody doing anything?

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

sometimes it feels like just as I'm about to kill myself or go missing something good happens and I get another reason to keep living
it is just pixels on a computer screen but getting to have doll as a username today was fun and it made me realize not all is bad
I still don't know where to go from here, but it's better than ending up on a missing persons list or ending up 6 feet under
thank you God for keeping me alive and giving me miracles to keep me motivated and (somewhat) happy

 

[Yes]

welcome to my personal journal of autism
heres some funny shit that happened today
- saw girl that looked exactly like satoko on the train home from art school
- ate 3 dry ramen noodle packets and drank sparkling water with it (still no fucking idea why i did this)
- worked on stuff for art school
- rabid screaming nigger on the train
more crazy happenings tomorrow

you should buy a taser irl so rabid trannies don't try to bite your johnson

 

[Yes]

ever since my girlfriend was murdered and her killer took her own life right afterwards i've been thinking more and more about ACKing
i guess ironically enough the only things preventing me from doing it are the bernd hanging jaks i don't want to look like and say that as ridiculous as it sounds
i've been having dual enrollment where my high school sends me off to a college campus 5 times a week to take classes and it's taken WAY too much of a toll on me despite the several extra hours of free time contrary to regular high school
there have been a lot of things i've thought about doing to maybe cope and ease out the pain but each "method" has way too many fucking consequences and drawbacks. i've thought about maybe taking lifting more seriously and taking roids and perhaps hope the test boosts my mood and gives me extra gains o algo
and then the other less conventional option would've been to skip classes to go to a nature reserve and unwind but i live in an urban shithole where theres no trees for at least 10 miles out
i know killing myself won't solve shit and it'll just ruin the people around me, but i know for a fact that the person i was before that happened isn't there anymore and there is only a reflection of myself
physically i'm still alive and still breathing but everyone around me noticed a huge change in demeanor and now i don't think any of my friends want to talk to me anymore because of how shitty of a mood i'm always in
even when i'm locked up in my room and able to cope with some shit like games or music or art i get rudely interrupted by my family (who, i do care about) but they're always asking me for trivial shit
"can you grab me some water" or "can you help me with _" which i always do for them but sometimes it gets aggravating when i'm looking at pictures of my late girlfriend and reading her love letters to myself and i get called by my mom to ask to borrow something
life doesn't seem to be getting better, but i can only hope at this point

tl:dr my girlfriend is dead and it sucks

oh if this is true im very sorry for your loss that has to be absolutely horrifying

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

oh if this is true im very sorry for your loss that has to be absolutely horrifying

if you don't believe me i can dm you the news articles
shits hard sometimes, thank you for the support

 

[Redditor]

if you don't believe me i can dm you the news articles
shits hard sometimes, thank you for the support

I refuse to search up things about my town online because the news article or YouTube videos about my friend usually ends up coming up, I hate being reminded about the severity of it.

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

also i've been thinking about making gun replicas for the fuck of it, specifically an AK or some other rifle from the cold war since i made one for a school project last year
pics related
except maybe this time either exclusively out of wood or maybe wood and metal, cardboard is flimsy as shit and it was a hassle to bring to school because i didn't want people to think it was a real gun and pull the alarm
my history teacher said he'd take the blame if administration got mad about it (they did)
other students liked it or wanted to hold it and some of them were worried or just looked at me funny

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

I refuse to search up things about my town online because the news article or YouTube videos about my friend usually ends up coming up, I hate being reminded about the severity of it.

luckily she lived 25 miles away but the news articles always come up whenever i look up her town
she lived in a really nice and really quiet suburban town and the residents around her were shocked because it's one of the nicest places in the state
every time i read the articles i only feel sadness or rage
i remember the day i found out i tried clicking an article trying to see if it was actually her and i got bombarded with advertisements and it made me fucking enraged because i realized they weren't reporting because they cared about this, they reported it because they wanted money

 

[Yes]

also i've been thinking about making gun replicas for the fuck of it, specifically an AK or some other rifle from the cold war since i made one for a school project last year
pics related
except maybe this time either exclusively out of wood or maybe wood and metal, cardboard is flimsy as shit and it was a hassle to bring to school because i didn't want people to think it was a real gun and pull the alarm
my history teacher said he'd take the blame if administration got mad about it (they did)
other students liked it or wanted to hold it and some of them were worried or just looked at me funny
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absolute libtard energy worse than average canadian school

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

absolute libtard energy worse than average canadian school

i live in massive two shits of course it's liberal here
>muh GUNS R SCAWY!!!! CARDBOARD GUN??? ERRMMM CHUDDY THATS HECKIN PROBLEMATIC
when i get older im gonna go up to new hampshire or maine so i can shoot guns and do cool shit without tranny liberals telling me it's scary and a threat to democracy

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

oh funny happening of the day
some tweaking crackhead was singing his heart out at the train station and when he finished he said some insane shit like "I'M BLACK BUT I SOUND WHITE NIGGER" and me and my friends were laughing our fucking asses off from across the damn train station
what a creature geg

 

[Yes]

oh funny happening of the day
some tweaking crackhead was singing his heart out at the train station and when he finished he said some insane shit like "I'M BLACK BUT I SOUND WHITE NIGGER" and me and my friends were laughing our fucking asses off from across the damn train station
what a creature geg

aryan BEAST

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

progress report came in and I have an F in math and my parents tore into me for it
at least I'll be getting my roids soon + I gained 10 pounds
I was actually scared that I lost weight but I got a pleasant surprise this morning

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

progress report came in and I have an F in math and my parents tore into me for it
at least I'll be getting my roids soon + I gained 10 pounds
I was actually scared that I lost weight but I got a pleasant surprise this morning

I'm doing pretty good in my college composition class though
shredded at 190 perhaps?
ALSO MORE LIFE UPDATES
wrestling coach sent an email back I'll be joining the team for the winter might post more about that soon