Schizo doedoedoes's PERSONAL blog thread (shit nobody cares about & other stuff)

[Fortuna]

everything i wanted when i was younger
the goal i have had since i started
it's happening and i need to take advantage of it

What goal? Why do you always sound so cryptic?

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

What goal? Why do you always sound so cryptic?

geg sorry for that
being muscular
i've always wanted to be a muscular strong guy

 

[Fortuna]

geg sorry for that
being muscular
i've always wanted to be a muscular strong guy

Are you not?

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

Are you not?

i don't look very good in a t-shirt i just kinda look like a regular guy
to be honest i'm starting to have second thoughts i'm kinda scared i don't know
i'm scared of my mom and dad finding it and putting me in a mental institution or disowning me or the mental effects of it giving away my usage to my parents
the friend who accepted the package heard rattling and thought it was steroids and asked me if it was and now i'm terrified
i'm gonna put cottonballs in the bottles so they don't rattle but the thought of getting caught still mortifies me and is what keeps me up at night
it'll be over in 8 weeks, one and done

 

[Fortuna]

i don't look very good in a t-shirt i just kinda look like a regular guy

So what?

to be honest i'm starting to have second thoughts i'm kinda scared i don't know

You should be, I think. It's pretty dangerous.

the friend who accepted the package heard rattling and thought it was steroids and asked me if it was and now i'm terrified

Why did his mind jump straight to steroids??

i'm gonna put cottonballs in the bottles so they don't rattle but the thought of getting caught still mortifies me and is what keeps me up at night

Well don't do it.

 

[Zuse]

i don't look very good in a t-shirt i just kinda look like a regular guy
to be honest i'm starting to have second thoughts i'm kinda scared i don't know
i'm scared of my mom and dad finding it and putting me in a mental institution or disowning me or the mental effects of it giving away my usage to my parents
the friend who accepted the package heard rattling and thought it was steroids and asked me if it was and now i'm terrified
i'm gonna put cottonballs in the bottles so they don't rattle but the thought of getting caught still mortifies me and is what keeps me up at night
it'll be over in 8 weeks, one and done

Why don't you just naturally gain muscle? Don't make the impulsive decision to hurt your body with that.

 

[Hoot]

>doe doe doe

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

I got a long 8 weeks ahead of me
day 1 not many noticeable changes or physical changes
gonna hit arms and go home

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

I've calmed down since yesterday
hopefully the cycle goes well but one can only hope

 

[Fortuna]

I got a long 8 weeks ahead of me
day 1 not many noticeable changes or physical changes
gonna hit arms and go home

I've calmed down since yesterday
hopefully the cycle goes well but one can only hope

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

I care about you and I'm gonna promise and reassure you that this will not be happening again
I know what I'm doing, and I know the risks and potential consequences
rest assured I will be safe and careful, steroids are not to be taken lightly
I know that you're still gonna be worried no matter what I say but I promise all will be well

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

holy shit i'm not doing this again
i think i have mild myocarditis, breathing and my heartbeat feel really weird
i don't think doing this was a good idea
@Fortuna you were right i'm sorry

 

[Fortuna]

holy shit i'm not doing this again
i think i have mild myocarditis, breathing and my heartbeat feel really weird
i don't think doing this was a good idea
@Fortuna you were right i'm sorry

How do you know you have myocarditis?

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

How do you know you have myocarditis?

i read a case about a 16 year old who took the exact same stuff that i did and he got myocarditis and the symptoms are nearly exactly what i have just less severe
it was one dose but it was enough to mess with his heart muscles
i should've listened to you fortuna i'm sorry

 

[Fortuna]

i read a case about a 16 year old who took the exact same stuff that i did and he got myocarditis and the symptoms are nearly exactly what i have just less severe
it was one dose but it was enough to mess with his heart muscles
i should've listened to you fortuna i'm sorry

What did you take again?

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

What did you take again?

rad140
i'm a fucking idiot i'm throwing this shit out i'm never using shit like this ever again

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

rad140
i'm a fucking idiot i'm throwing this shit out i'm never using shit like this ever again

update i took some ibuprofen (childrens ibuprofen, we don't have regular ibuprofen for some reason) and the symptoms seem to have gone away luckily
all is well seems like google is telling me the problem will fix itself in about 6 weeks
i think i'm either gonna throw them away or wait until my body fully develops to even consider taking something like that (25+)

 

[NiggerRigger]

Imagine how somebody who puts a phone into his pocket and his sperm count.

 

[Fortuna]

update i took some ibuprofen (childrens ibuprofen, we don't have regular ibuprofen for some reason) and the symptoms seem to have gone away luckily
all is well seems like google is telling me the problem will fix itself in about 6 weeks
i think i'm either gonna throw them away or wait until my body fully develops to even consider taking something like that (25+)

Stay safe.

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

at the hospital at the moment
hopefully things go well but they haven't called anybody yet