Schizo doedoedoes's PERSONAL blog thread (shit nobody cares about & other stuff)

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

welcome to my personal journal of autism
heres some funny shit that happened today
- saw girl that looked exactly like satoko on the train home from art school
- ate 3 dry ramen noodle packets and drank sparkling water with it (still no fucking idea why i did this)
- worked on stuff for art school
- rabid screaming nigger on the train
more crazy happenings tomorrow

 

[lifesucksthenyoudie]

- saw girl that looked exactly like satoko on the train home from art school

SO you were the guy who made that thread today
Do you have any pictures

 

[Fake20Dollarbill]

welcome to my personal journal of autism
heres some funny shit that happened today
- saw girl that looked exactly like satoko on the train home from art school
- ate 3 dry ramen noodle packets and drank sparkling water with it (still no fucking idea why i did this)
- worked on stuff for art school
- rabid screaming nigger on the train
more crazy happenings tomorrow

>art school
Blud think he hitler

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

SO you were the guy who made that thread today
Do you have any pictures

unfortunately not she was directly in front of me
she had her mutt boyfriend next to her so if i tried taking any pictures shit would prob go south geg

 

[Fake20Dollarbill]

unfortunately not she was directly in front of me
she had her mutt boyfriend next to her so if i tried taking any pictures shit would prob go south geg

You gotta stay strapped boi, gotta have dat blicky nigga

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

>art school
Blud think he hitler

contrary to popular belief drawing lines on paper fucking sucks sometimes
>NOOOOOOOOO YOU NEED TO DO ABSTRACT LINES ON PAPER BECAUSE... BECAUSE I SAID SO, OKAY?!

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

You gotta stay strapped boi, gotta have dat blicky nigga

i probably do need to carry a gun because i live in a dogshit neighborhood but my parents are against the idea because guns le bad or something

 

[Fake20Dollarbill]

contrary to popular belief drawing lines on paper fucking sucks sometimes
>NOOOOOOOOO YOU NEED TO DO ABSTRACT LINES ON PAPER BECAUSE... BECAUSE I SAID SO, OKAY?!

Ask your professor to teach you to draw anime geg

 

[Fake20Dollarbill]

i probably do need to carry a gun because i live in a dogshit neighborhood but my parents are against the idea because guns le bad or something

Let a gang of niggers rob them, they will change their retarded opinion

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

Ask your professor to teach you to draw anime geg

she went on an unhinged rant to the colored haired faggots in my class talking about "every time you guys draw people it's always the SAME ANIME CHIBI-ESQUE STYLE. WE ARE TIRED OF IT. PLEASE DO SOMETHING ELSE."
geg material

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

just remembered that i have a several week old half empty can of blue sour patch kids ghost energy drink hidden in some god forbidden crevice of my room
i left that bitch there thinking i was gonna drink it later and it's been there ever since
maybe i could check up on it and do an experiment o algo

 

[Fake20Dollarbill]

just remembered that i have a several week old half empty can of blue sour patch kids ghost energy drink hidden in some god forbidden crevice of my room
i left that bitch there thinking i was gonna drink it later and it's been there ever since
maybe i could check up on it and do an experiment o algo

Do this

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

MOST OF MY CLASSES ARE CANCELLED I GET TO BE A SELFISH LITTLE FUCK AND STAY HOME TODAY WOOOO

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

i was waiting for my dad to pick me up and i saw this old bitch on her apartment balcony taking a smoke break
guaranteed if she took another huff her lungs would probably given out, too bad i didnt get to see it doe geg

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

i need to seriously get my shit together
i need to get back into the gym, do wrestling, meal prep, etc
i don't know where to start but i know i need to start within the next few days, and to be honest, today seems like the best time to at least see where to go from here
wish me luck

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

had youth club yesterday, got to play basketball but i suck at it
i really need to get better at running

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

last night after that was weird, i don't know why but any thoughts i have after 10 pm are so fucked up
i feel so alone sometimes but this is no place for me to be moping about my personal life or at least i don't think so
i'd make a separate thread for it but i'd probably get laughed at so i'm gonna lay off of it for now

 

[baqqrih]

last night after that was weird, i don't know why but any thoughts i have after 10 pm are so fucked up
i feel so alone sometimes but this is no place for me to be moping about my personal life or at least i don't think so
i'd make a separate thread for it but i'd probably get laughed at so i'm gonna lay off of it for now

This is your thread, you can mope all you want.

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

This is your thread, you can mope all you want.

lol you're right guess i'll do that soon enough

 

[doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe]

ever since my girlfriend was murdered and her killer took her own life right afterwards i've been thinking more and more about ACKing
i guess ironically enough the only things preventing me from doing it are the bernd hanging jaks i don't want to look like and say that as ridiculous as it sounds
i've been having dual enrollment where my high school sends me off to a college campus 5 times a week to take classes and it's taken WAY too much of a toll on me despite the several extra hours of free time contrary to regular high school
there have been a lot of things i've thought about doing to maybe cope and ease out the pain but each "method" has way too many fucking consequences and drawbacks. i've thought about maybe taking lifting more seriously and taking roids and perhaps hope the test boosts my mood and gives me extra gains o algo
and then the other less conventional option would've been to skip classes to go to a nature reserve and unwind but i live in an urban shithole where theres no trees for at least 10 miles out
i know killing myself won't solve shit and it'll just ruin the people around me, but i know for a fact that the person i was before that happened isn't there anymore and there is only a reflection of myself
physically i'm still alive and still breathing but everyone around me noticed a huge change in demeanor and now i don't think any of my friends want to talk to me anymore because of how shitty of a mood i'm always in
even when i'm locked up in my room and able to cope with some shit like games or music or art i get rudely interrupted by my family (who, i do care about) but they're always asking me for trivial shit
"can you grab me some water" or "can you help me with _" which i always do for them but sometimes it gets aggravating when i'm looking at pictures of my late girlfriend and reading her love letters to myself and i get called by my mom to ask to borrow something
life doesn't seem to be getting better, but i can only hope at this point

tl:dr my girlfriend is dead and it sucks