Coal Benny’s journal

[Benny]

10/5/2024
I can’t sleep because I can hear my brimstone sister gaming in the other room next to me (it’s this one sound that repeats over and over again at roughly 200 something bpm which I’m guessing is one key being pressed over and over again) so I will tell you guys what has happened to me for the past few days.

1. Terry scared me of the site for a day or two. I was afraid he’d call me a hurtful word like a bunch of other people online do.

2. I caught one of my weird kid friends doing indecent things in the library
Apparently he’s gay and has a boyfriend named Blake.
I saw them cuddle and kiss on the library floor and this one thing I later learned was called a hickey. Everything about it looked sexual.
I was repulsed by this and I couldn’t stand to look at such an act. That day, I knew for sure that I am in fact, a straight man.
At least they apologized to me after "traumatizing" me with such sexually deviant acts but geez, get a room.

3. I made some aluminum powder.
It’s a pretty small amount due to the process I’m using (mortar and pestle on blended aluminum foil and then put through a fine mesh) might make a post about flash powder later.

4. I’ve made little progress on my projects for the schlog (e.g. request from @SINO to make a stop motion)
This is mainly due to school work and the gathering of materials I need for those projects.

5. My school had a presentation on mental health.
I thought some aspects of the presentation were pretty inaccurate because those things point to me needing help and wanting to bomb the school.
To be fair, for a time I really did want to because I was growing sick of a lot people there but now that I’m actively trying to make friends and better my social skills, I don’t really feel that way anymore.
I’m pretty sure I don’t have these problems and it’s just that the school is super obsessed.

 

[SINO]

10/5/2024
I can’t sleep because I can hear my brimstone sister gaming in the other room next to me (it’s this one sound that repeats over and over again at roughly 200 something bpm which I’m guessing is one key being pressed over and over again) so I will tell you guys what has happened to me for the past few days.

1. Terry scared me of the site for a day or two. I was afraid he’d call me a hurtful word like a bunch of other people online do.

2. I caught one of my weird kid friends doing indecent things in the library
Apparently he’s gay and has a boyfriend named Blake.
I saw them cuddle and kiss on the library floor and this one thing I later learned was called a hickey. Everything about it looked sexual.
I was repulsed by this and I couldn’t stand to look at such an act. That day, I knew for sure that I am in fact, a straight man.
At least they apologized to me after "traumatizing" me with such sexually deviant acts but geez, get a room.

3. I made some aluminum powder.
It’s a pretty small amount due to the process I’m using (mortar and pestle on blended aluminum foil and then put through a fine mesh) might make a post about flash powder later.

4. I’ve made little progress on my projects for the schlog (e.g. request from @SINO to make a stop motion)
This is mainly due to school work and the gathering of materials I need for those projects.

5. My school had a presentation on mental health.
I thought some aspects of the presentation were pretty inaccurate because those things point to me needing help and wanting to bomb the school.
To be fair, for a time I really did want to because I was growing sick of a lot people there but now that I’m actively trying to make friends and better my social skills, I don’t really feel that way anymore.
I’m pretty sure I don’t have these problems and it’s just that the school is super obsessed.

Welcome back little buddy!

 

[Benny]

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aaaaaaaaaaannd the power's back on. well, so much for that.

 

[NT]

Florida is a nice and happy place. Good night

 

[Benny]

10/20/2024

Made flash powder, to no surprise it was shit. When It was ignited, the powder smoldered for a bit and near the end burst into a big flame that quickly died down. There’s a lot of room for improvement.
Bought a VHS camcorder from a big black bull, he lied (or maybe he didn’t check it thoroughly enough) when he said it was never used. A lot of the cameras functions didn’t work, there was a tape inside of the camera, and the battery won’t charge. I’m pretty sure my dad is in the process of returning it.
Made a recording of myself playing the guitar for the incelcore thread on /mtv/ but I thought it sounded bad and I didn’t like my voice. I did show it to my pooner friend and xe liked it for some reason.
Proof I learned the song (I did it by ear because I was too much of a retard to look up the chords on the internet):
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Sorry for the low quality.

 

[Benny]

I like to be alone sometimes. When I’m alone, I get to do what I want with no interference and my mind is allowed to think however it wants to. no one’s around to disturb me and I don’t have to hear my own voice because I don’t need to respond to anyone. I hope one weekend I feel well enough to pull myself out of my room and outside early in the morning for a nice long walk, never talking or eating and stopping at everything that catches my interest and coming back home when the sun sets. I want to come home feeling starved with my mom and dad worried with where I have been all day but I won’t tell them. I think I’d feel less like a burden to them that way, if I just left them for a bit, maybe things would feel better for them and I’d get my time alone.
This feels like a win win situation to me.
If I ever get to do this, I’ll bring a camera with me and I’ll show you guys a few photos.

 

[Fortuna]

I like to be alone sometimes. When I’m alone, I get to do what I want with no interference and my mind is allowed to think however it wants to. no one’s around to disturb me and I don’t have to hear my own voice because I don’t need to respond to anyone. I hope one weekend I feel well enough to pull myself out of my room and outside early in the morning for a nice long walk, never talking or eating and stopping at everything that catches my interest and coming back home when the sun sets. I want to come home feeling starved with my mom and dad worried with where I have been all day but I won’t tell them. I think I’d feel less like a burden to them that way, if I just left them for a bit, maybe things would feel better for them and I’d get my time alone.
This feels like a win win situation to me.
If I ever get to do this, I’ll bring a camera with me and I’ll show you guys a few photos.

Maybe you should just tell them you want to go for a walk.

 

[Benny]

Right now I’m trying to make the most of the broken camcorder the black bull gave to me, here’s some things I found out about it.
1.) the camera does not have a dirty head: I tried cleaning it. It did create a better image than last time but still did not show what the camera was seeing, I think something on the inside needs to be replaced.
2.) fast forward and rewind on this thing are so slow: this could be due to some speed setting I’m not aware of but I think it’s a little too early to make these assumptions.
3.) camera randomly turns off sometimes: something on the inside definitely needs replacement.
4.) it may not be worth fixing: Might just want to buy another one to use for recording things (like my soon to be friend's place of residence). I’ll still keep the broken one though because I still want it fixed in the future.
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I wasn’t here for a day because I was too busy posting on a SCNA alt-chan.

 

[Benny]

11/14/2024
not gonna lie Jax (creator of Boards and Pikidiary) is pretty frightening. Irrational fear or whatever
It's a good thing I know a general area to avoid to not encounter xer in real life, ever. This is due to xer posting a phone number which is likely xer's (said something about texting idk).
I could be inaccurate with my guess so please correct me if I make any error.
First, there is a +1 at the beginning of the number, indicating xhe lives in the U.S (or Canada, I'm not sure if those numbers have a +1). The area code 360 means xhe must live in west Washington. The prefix after that is 812 which from a few searches leads me to believe xhe's from Whatcom County. so as long as I never go there, I am likely safe from encountering xher in real life.
Possibly me if I go to Whatcom County in Washington state:

Jax does have my IP (Pikidiary account) but I'm pretty sure xhe wouldn't care enough to look into who I am and where I live, I'm just too boring.
Also, I've been doing pretty alright just checking this website once a day, I got myself to read a book about photography so I could take less crappy photos.

 

[vivo endive]

I got myself to read a book about photography so I could take less crappy photos.

what's the book called? i'd like to read it

 

[Rack]

First, there is a +1 at the beginning of the number, indicating xhe lives in the U.S (or Canada, I'm not sure if those numbers have a +1). The area code 360 means xhe must live in west Washington. The prefix after that is 812 which from a few searches leads me to believe xhe's from Whatcom County.

It’s very interesting how someone can find another person’s general location by just one piece of information