Coal Benny’s journal

[Benny]

9/24/2024

Today I wanted to do something for a soyjak object show but after entering the matrix server, I was left a little disappointed.
To be fair, they’re just starting but some progress could have been made.
In the meantime while I watch them get their stuff together, I’m gonna make a brimstone animation to promote the show.

Look at these heckin nostalgic photos.

Hair on back done.

Before finishing details.

Finished David Soytan, ready to animate.

That’s all for today, just working on making a soy object show animation.

 

[Benny]

9/26/2024
I think I screwed up on my animation and might have to try doing it again. a few mistakes early on can really throw you off.

I also tried logging on to Bandcamp with my laptop so i can more easily access all the troonslop I consoom (thats what kinda helps me get tranny friends) but the site won't let me log on. Huge brap from Bandcamp.

 

[terrycrews]

Kill yourself soytan gooner faggot nigger

 

[Benny]

Kill yourself soytan gooner faggot nigger

The soytan drawing is for a project and xhe does get killed in it. Just because I used soytan twice during my entire existence on the soysphere does not mean i'm a gooner to xer.
Just because I have troon friends does not mean I'm a faggot, same goes for consooming troonslop from time to time, lots of ordinary people do that.
And you threw in the word nigger for some reason.

 

[terrycrews]

The soytan drawing is for a project and xhe does get killed in it. Just because I used soytan twice during my entire existence on the soysphere does not mean i'm a gooner to xer.
Just because I have troon friends does not mean I'm a faggot, same goes for consooming troonslop from time to time, lots of ordinary people do that.
And you threw in the word nigger for some reason.

Cope

 

[Benny]

Cope

If it makes you feel more like a valid man, sure thing buddy.

 

[terrycrews]

If it makes you feel more like a valid man, sure thing buddy.

HOLY FUCK WHERE ARE YOU GETTING THIS SHIT FROM DUDE

 

[Benny]

HOLY FUCK WHERE ARE YOU GETTING THIS SHIT FROM DUDE

I meant valid as in your opinion being well grounded or something.

 

[terrycrews]

I meant valid as in your opinion being well grounded or something.

I could beat you to death

 

[Benny]

I could beat you to death

no doubt in my mind that this is true.

 

[terrycrews]

no doubt in my mind that this is true.

I'm glad we've come to an understanding.

 

[Benny]

I'm glad we've come to an understanding.

will that mean you'll stop pestering me?

 

[terrycrews]

will that mean you'll stop pestering me?

I guess

 

[Benny]

I guess

I don't even know why you even bother having these conversations with me. I'm a literal who makes SNCA threads and virtually everyone on this site knows who you are. Of all the people here who could've been more worth your time talking to, you chose to waste those precious seconds with me. I hold nothing of value to you or this place in any way and I'll always agree with your threats because I'm too much of a pussy to stand up for myself online and in real life (i.e. I'm a big fucking loser and I'm aware of that).

 

[terrycrews]

I don't even know why you even bother having these conversations with me. I'm a literal who makes SNCA threads and virtually everyone on this site knows who you are. Of all the people here who could've been more worth your time talking to, you chose to waste those precious seconds with me. I hold nothing of value to you or this place in any way and I'll always agree with your threats because I'm too much of a pussy to stand up for myself online and in real life (i.e. I'm a big fucking loser and I'm aware of that).

jesus dude i'm sorry

 

[terrycrews]

what is wrong with you dude

 

[Benny]

what is wrong with you dude

I just know my place.

 

[terrycrews]

I just know my place.

No you have a severe lack of self esteem and you need to grow a spine you faggot

 

[Benny]

No you have a severe lack of self esteem and you need to grow a spine you faggot

Even if I did have those problems, how do you suppose calling me a faggot helps.
Can't you just leave me alone so I can rot in peace for once in my life.

 

[Benny]

9/27/2024

It felt great that I had more than a weekend off of school because of the hurricane, I kind of dread going to school:

first thing after entering school, I'm the butt of a gay joke even though I'm not gay ( I think it's because of my infrequent haircuts and bony looking body).
Most of my friend are emos or "weird kids" with parental problems (one of them had to call CPS due to how much they were abused) but I can't really complain because that's pretty much all I can get with my weak social skills (I stutter when talking to strangers).
At lunch I sit alone on the floor or in the library with my weird kid friends (it's always been like this ever since students were allowed to choose seats).
One of the few things I look forward to in school is a girl I can't even get with because I'm too nervous to talk to women my age willingly unless someone introduces me to them and they go to completely different classes.
But it's all really okay because I get to talk to my friends about myself without getting called a weirdo, incel, or other hurtful phrase that means there is something wrong with my head and I have shitty music to help me get through my day

Picked a more popular song here although I don't really listen to Modern Baseball that often.