Dream/Journal Yapping

[ImSchizophrenicThough]

Okay, so the election (the whole thing) has been giving me weird vibes. So I'm gonna schizobabble about the weird shit.
1) Joe Biden's replacement
I figured out 3 things about biden recently, which combined with what I already know, leads me to suspect the dem entourage poisoned/drugged the president for 4 years.
Firstly, Biden held back a ban of assault rifles other dems were psyched about, secondly, he made no effort to undo the overturning of roe v wade.
Thirdly, this video, attesting a marked improvement in cognitive ability

2) JD Vyvans & Laura Gooner
Both grifters, JD Vance referred to himself as a "never-trumper" during the 2016 election cycle. (Wonder why he went from calling trumps ideas "idiotic" and "absurd" to heckin' zased project 2025 right-hand man, cant be because he's a liar and a backstabber)
He also follows and watches shoeonhead and is married to a poojeet, definitively proving he's a gooner/porn-addict.
Laura Loomer is also a grifter, but more importantly she either is or really REALLY wants to fuck trump, I'd say BPD with a tinge of narcissism blown-out used hole.
As trumps spindoctor (I doubt she can debate her way out of a paper bag) she was responsible for the really, really poorly prepared trump in the kamala v trump debate

I like RFK because he's gonna de-fluoridate the water supply, and hope trump is going to apprentice the fuck out of these wierdos, maybe Vance can then write another meandering book about his druggie whore mother and trump le bad

 

[ImSchizophrenicThough]

Circumstances have forced me to cooperate with a certain person A. This person is reserved, demure to the point of selective mutism, and somehow despite that in the same position as me. The type to not even attempt making eye-contact or presenting a facsimile of response, even non-verbally A tells you nothing.
Because of this I reasoned A is either really intelligent or cunning, and I was sympathetic to his mutism.

A list of what happened roughly will follow.
1) Asks for help repeatedly when doing task. Completed behind schedule.
2) Assigned another task (testing something), doesn't communicate for 2 days.
3) Complains "It dont work", cannot vocalize why or what. Blames others.
4) After telling him off, and instructing him to do it anyway, goes mute and browses his phone while everyone else is working. I send him home.
(Reason: a condensed version of what occurred is less mired by emotion, and I present this for you to pause and think, asking yourself "What is A thinking?" of "How does A think?" really try to get into his perspective, the moment-to-moment experience of being stuck in his mind.)

Let me lead you to the conclusion I came to. First, is his mutism learned behavior? Is it advantageous? Or is it an act? It is learned, but not conscious, see point 2 and 3, where mutism has no clear advantage, and 4, where it is a defense-mechanism. It is only sporadically advantageous, which means he cannot consciously control it.
Secondly, note point 3, where he blames a colleague without any cause. Coming from anyone else this wouldn't be acceptable, but because he's demure heckin' sm0l bean, he gets to casually throw rocks at the people he's supposed to work with. Now why does he do this? -because I was prodding for answers from him, he couldn't give me the answers I was looking for, but could take the time to shit on a colleague. This isnt calculated, because then he would've thought it trough and tried to convince me it was another's fault, but he gave no reasons, thus it follows it is purely an emotional knee-jerk-reaction to being pressured.
Lastly, is limited non-verbal communication a sign of emotional blunting?

Yes, this leads to only one correct answer: A doesn't think - only feels reduced emotions. The moment-to-moment experience inside his mind is a lukewarm bath of emotion, occasionally sentences fly by with no real reasoning or thought behind them. A probably looks at the outside a tinge resentful; "they dont understand me" must be one of the thoughts steaming up from the bathwater. If the water gets too hot or cold, he cannot think anymore, and just simmers in it. A legitimate retard, failing his way upward courtesy of the sympathy of others.