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[Konata]

I'll use this thread to tell about my day-to-day life. I figured at least one person might be interested.
3/3/2024:
I had some plans today with someone, but I flaked. I feel bad for avoiding them, but I seriously could not go out today, I've had a strange feeling of anxiety the whole day. I've taken my meds pretty much everyday since I've been prescribed them but they don't seem to be helping me. I wonder if I should ask my therapist for a new medication. It's to the point where I've pretty much done nothing but lay in bed and use my computer for the past 2 or 3 days, I even called off work. I don't know why I've been feeling like this lately, but I just wish it would stop. It's happened in the past before. I usually just have to wait until my brain decides I should feel better. I remember when I was just a young teenager, maybe 13 or 14, I used to feel this way for weeks or even months at a time. I guess I should feel grateful that it's gotten better since then, but it doesn't provide me much solace when I'm still experiencing it, even if it's not as severe. The past few days have been particularly bad. I can't stop myself from thinking when I'm laying in bed. It gets me in a depressive cycle which is very hard to escape. I go to therapy on Tuesday, which coincidentally happens to be my Birthday. I was thinking of rescheduling but I figure that I'm not going to have a very big celebration this year. I never really have. Anyway, I'm really dreading having to go to work tomorrow. I was assigned this big project I'm supposed to have done in a few days and I haven't even started. That's all for now. I'll update this daily for those interested.

 

[Markiplier]

could you maybe add a bright colored image or some colored text to keep my attention thanks babyjumping

 

[Konata]

3/4/2024:
It feels weird making this post, as I basically spent the entire day on here anyway. I used the site from my phone at work. I didn't post, just lurked. My headspace hasn't gotten much better. I feel a layer of brain fog all the time to the point where I can't really remember what it's like not to have it. I just wish it wouldn't happen to me anymore. Work went about as expected. I didn't do shit. I just browsed the internet from my phone. I get incredibly anxious any time I even think about the shit I'm supposed to be doing and how far behind I am. I'm inevitably going to get fired but I just can't bring myself to actually be a productive member of society. I'd much rather do nothing all day and stay indoors. I've always been like that. I just don't get along with most people, I guess they think I'm a faggot loser autist or something. That isn't to say that I'm not, but I just wish they would cut me some slack from time to time. Sorry, I don't mean for these blogposts to be so depressing. I'm just going with whatever my mind thinks of to talk about. On an unrelated note, my birthday is tomorrow and I'm absolutely dreading it. I feel like I'm supposed to have friends to celebrate it with but I simply do not. I'm retarded for not rescheduling my therapy this week. Oh well. I just want to sleep. That's all for now.

 

[X Immigrant]

Shit nobody cares about general 10/10

 

[TeeRanney]

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
SHITALIAN NIGGGER
ACTUAL NEGRO FROM NAPLES

 

[X Immigrant]

Mexcrement goyim above me

 

[doctos brother]

Mexcrement goyim above me

Can you post your profile picture I like it

 

[Konata]

Shit nobody cares about general 10/10

shut up

 

[X Immigrant]

>shut up
Whiny little cunt, whattya gonna do? Blud really though this was /qa/

 

[NigKiller_Tojo]

shut up

retarded anime tranny is mad gegggg

 

[Alextremo2TheMax]

 

[Konata]

3/5/2024:
It was my birthday today. I still decided to go to therapy to try and see if I could get on a different medication. She did recommend something but my insurance doesn't cover it so there's basically nothing I can do about it. As expected, nobody really cared it was my birthday. I still went to work and did everything I usually do. I bought myself a cake but I'm not sure I'm even gonna eat it because my appetite has been completely nonexistent for the past week. My parents gave me some money as a present so that was nice. Other than that, I'm still feeling exactly how I have been the past week. I don't know when it's gonna stop and I'm starting to think it might be a long term kind of deal. That idea is troubling to me. It just reminds me of shit that's happened in the past and it sets me off on a self-sustaining cycle. With any luck, I should snap out of it. That at least I can keep out hope for. That's all for now.

 

[baqqrih]

3/5/2024:
It was my birthday today. I still decided to go to therapy to try and see if I could get on a different medication. She did recommend something but my insurance doesn't cover it so there's basically nothing I can do about it. As expected, nobody really cared it was my birthday. I still went to work and did everything I usually do. I bought myself a cake but I'm not sure I'm even gonna eat it because my appetite has been completely nonexistent for the past week. My parents gave me some money as a present so that was nice. Other than that, I'm still feeling exactly how I have been the past week. I don't know when it's gonna stop and I'm starting to think it might be a long term kind of deal. That idea is troubling to me. It just reminds me of shit that's happened in the past and it sets me off on a self-sustaining cycle. With any luck, I should snap out of it. That at least I can keep out hope for. That's all for now.

happy birthday buddy

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[bowl]

3/5/2024:
It was my birthday today. I still decided to go to therapy to try and see if I could get on a different medication. She did recommend something but my insurance doesn't cover it so there's basically nothing I can do about it. As expected, nobody really cared it was my birthday. I still went to work and did everything I usually do. I bought myself a cake but I'm not sure I'm even gonna eat it because my appetite has been completely nonexistent for the past week. My parents gave me some money as a present so that was nice. Other than that, I'm still feeling exactly how I have been the past week. I don't know when it's gonna stop and I'm starting to think it might be a long term kind of deal. That idea is troubling to me. It just reminds me of shit that's happened in the past and it sets me off on a self-sustaining cycle. With any luck, I should snap out of it. That at least I can keep out hope for. That's all for now.

Hope you had a good birthday!

 

[Konata]

happy birthday buddy

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Hope you had a good birthday!

Thank you

 

[PhotoGeneral]

>words words words

 

[NigKiller_Tojo]

shut da fuck up tranime nigger nobody likes you

 

[TeeRanney]

i l-l-l-like you......

 

[p0rt42]

3/5/2024:
It was my birthday today. I still decided to go to therapy to try and see if I could get on a different medication. She did recommend something but my insurance doesn't cover it so there's basically nothing I can do about it. As expected, nobody really cared it was my birthday. I still went to work and did everything I usually do. I bought myself a cake but I'm not sure I'm even gonna eat it because my appetite has been completely nonexistent for the past week. My parents gave me some money as a present so that was nice. Other than that, I'm still feeling exactly how I have been the past week. I don't know when it's gonna stop and I'm starting to think it might be a long term kind of deal. That idea is troubling to me. It just reminds me of shit that's happened in the past and it sets me off on a self-sustaining cycle. With any luck, I should snap out of it. That at least I can keep out hope for. That's all for now.

Happy late birthday

 

[Konata]

3/6/2024:
Terrible day. I woke up almost half an hour late and I had to rush to get ready. Then, at work, the people would not stop pestering me today. It’s like every one of those morons had some tech issue. They were so stupidly easy to fix that probably anybody on this website could do it. I hate boomers so fucking much bros. They act like they’re entitled to anything, and at the same time they’re so ignorant of everything. I had an eye doctor appointment today and I found out my eyes are only getting worse. I have glasses but I don’t wear them because I look like a fag with them on. I’m really unsure on how much longer I can take at this shitty job. I’ve already been thinking of quitting and going full NEET. It’s enough that I already have so many stresses in my life, like my medicine making me more depressed, my parents’ constant bitching about how I’m not in a relationship with anyone, and so many other things. I really want to just stay inside all day and do fuck all for the next few years. That’s all for now.