Discussion Autistic hatreds

[AR47]

Do you have any autistic hatreds?

Basically things that are seen as normal/uncontroversial, but which you have a strong dislike for.

Not shit like gooning or having the wrong politics. But really specific stuff that people don't pay attention to.

Example:

 

[XXX_SKIBIDISIGMA_XXX]

fandom "shippers", decapitate them all

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[ScienceHaterxxx]

I have a unhealthy obession of hiding my music tastes to my mom. just the idea of someone figuring out I listen to video game music or show soundtracks makes me cringe in a way I cant explain. There is nothing bad bout the songs. I just cringe thinking about it. even if I liked a normal rock song I would not tell my parents and hide it because the idea of my mom knowing I listen to rock makes me cringe. It sounds stupid when I explain it. 99% chance they would not give a single shit. I think I know what caused this to. Another thing i hate that autistic people do is be the center of the "conversation" and try to tell a story in front of everyone where noone talks instead of a normal sided conversation.

I think this can all stem from middle school for me. I went to a private school that was not that good. and I just finished elementry, this was like 8 years ago. Anyways as I grew up at lunch I always focused myself as the center of the conversation and I would tell storys and everyone would listen to me. then once I was done someone else would tell something and everyone would listen to them. Flash forward and I found that isnt how conversations work. My teacher interrupted me when I was doing that. I was talking about a really nerdy repair thing I did that sounds so nerdy now that I think of it. and forcefullly moved me out of the conversation as well as saying to everyone in the class that im "attention seeking." and I had to awkardly sit there as everyone stared at me for trying to tell a very long story and have everyone pay attention to me like I was fixing to be the center of attention(whats wrose is that we had just gotten into middle school so this was there first impression of me). this happened multiple times during the beginning of the year and I think to this day it has stuck with me. I remember being ashamed like really ashamed. That thought of me talking about something so nerdy trying to be at the center of the conversation like I was a streamer and they were the audience listenting to me rather than me talking and then someone else talks has made me self concious about everything I do. I dont play games like fallout new vegas when my parents are in the same room not because they dont let me play rated m games. But because it looks "cringey and a mindless shooter" at first glance and my self counsius wont allow me to play it while there in the same room. I remember playing a lego game on the tv and when my parents came in I forcefully turned it off because I did not want them to think of me as playing a game for children. Hell I hesitate to play minecraft on the tv when they are around because it looks "nerdy and childish". Whenever there is a loud music sequence on the tv I turn the volume down to zero in shame because it sounds "childish and nerdy" because of how self consious I am. And I think it can stem back to that one situation.


I sometimes see youtube videos of nerds explaining obsecure shit that if I explained to my friends they would most likely say "who cares" and id feel ashamed for a few days from cringe. Whenever I see this stuff and my mom walks into my room I would forcefully shut it off(https://ww(space) w.you (space) tube.com/watch?v=EZV0cJnIZTY). If I sent that video to my mom I would probally kill myself from cringe and embarsement. I cringe watching videos like that in a way I cant explain. I envy nerds who can talk about obsecure nerd stuff and not care at all. But I also feel bad for all the looks they must get and I could never do something like that.

Ive also had moments where I feel shame when watching something with my parents in the room before that middle school memory. but its mainly stuff like Nick jr when I was little in elementary not wanting to seem like a young toddler. it was not as severe as after that middle school memory. If anyone has the same feeling as me just note that its ok. I want to tell you that your parents wont care as long as its not like super cringey or really werid. Talk to a friend or someone you can trust(I know it wont be your parents. its ok). It felt so good to let this all out and I hope to whoever has similar issues takes my advice and knows that everything will be ok

 

[NT]

The sound of vacuum cleaners

 

[ScienceHaterxxx]

I have a unhealthy obession of hiding my music tastes to my mom. just the idea of someone figuring out I listen to video game music or show soundtracks makes me cringe in a way I cant explain. There is nothing bad bout the songs. I just cringe thinking about it. even if I liked a normal rock song I would not tell my parents and hide it because the idea of my mom knowing I listen to rock makes me cringe. It sounds stupid when I explain it. 99% chance they would not give a single shit. I think I know what caused this to. Another thing i hate that autistic people do is be the center of the "conversation" and try to tell a story in front of everyone where noone talks instead of a normal sided conversation.

I think this can all stem from middle school for me. I went to a private school that was not that good. and I just finished elementry, this was like 8 years ago. Anyways as I grew up at lunch I always focused myself as the center of the conversation and I would tell storys and everyone would listen to me. then once I was done someone else would tell something and everyone would listen to them. Flash forward and I found that isnt how conversations work. My teacher interrupted me when I was doing that. I was talking about a really nerdy repair thing I did that sounds so nerdy now that I think of it. and forcefullly moved me out of the conversation as well as saying to everyone in the class that im "attention seeking." and I had to awkardly sit there as everyone stared at me for trying to tell a very long story and have everyone pay attention to me like I was fixing to be the center of attention(whats wrose is that we had just gotten into middle school so this was there first impression of me). this happened multiple times during the beginning of the year and I think to this day it has stuck with me. I remember being ashamed like really ashamed. That thought of me talking about something so nerdy trying to be at the center of the conversation like I was a streamer and they were the audience listenting to me rather than me talking and then someone else talks has made me self concious about everything I do. I dont play games like fallout new vegas when my parents are in the same room not because they dont let me play rated m games. But because it looks "cringey and a mindless shooter" at first glance and my self counsius wont allow me to play it while there in the same room. I remember playing a lego game on the tv and when my parents came in I forcefully turned it off because I did not want them to think of me as playing a game for children. Hell I hesitate to play minecraft on the tv when they are around because it looks "nerdy and childish". Whenever there is a loud music sequence on the tv I turn the volume down to zero in shame because it sounds "childish and nerdy" because of how self consious I am. And I think it can stem back to that one situation.


I sometimes see youtube videos of nerds explaining obsecure shit that if I explained to my friends they would most likely say "who cares" and id feel ashamed for a few days from cringe. Whenever I see this stuff and my mom walks into my room I would forcefully shut it off(https://ww(space) w.you (space) tube.com/watch?v=EZV0cJnIZTY). If I sent that video to my mom I would probally kill myself from cringe and embarsement. I cringe watching videos like that in a way I cant explain. I envy nerds who can talk about obsecure nerd stuff and not care at all. But I also feel bad for all the looks they must get and I could never do something like that.

I also want to say that to people who cringe at there past like I did to just note that you do stupid shit when your a kid/teen. There is nothing to be ashamed of years later. I know this is words words words left cant meme. but another thing that I could not stand from cringe is what I described and stupid stuff I did years ago. If anyone hates themselves for what they did in the past I want them to know that as a kid/teen you are constantly evolving/learning. The YOU you think of in the past is a different person. Someone who has learned and evolved from there mistakes. Even if its not a mistake and you did something shitty just note that alot of the things you do as a teen are controlled by hormones and not by you. But even if it was not hormones that made you do something shitty you still should not be ashamed years later. kids/teens do stupid shit all of the time its part of being young.

 

[AR47]

safe edgy

Tsmt. It's a contradiction in terms.

I have a unhealthy obession of hiding my music tastes to my mom. just the idea of someone figuring out I listen to video game music or show soundtracks makes me cringe in a way I cant explain. There is nothing bad bout the songs. I just cringe thinking about it. even if I liked a normal rock song I would not tell my parents and hide it because the idea of my mom knowing I listen to rock makes me cringe. It sounds stupid when I explain it. 99% chance they would not give a single shit. I think I know what caused this to. Another thing i hate that autistic people do is be the center of the "conversation" and try to tell a story in front of everyone where noone talks instead of a normal sided conversation.

I think this can all stem from middle school for me. I went to a private school that was not that good. and I just finished elementry, this was like 8 years ago. Anyways as I grew up at lunch I always focused myself as the center of the conversation and I would tell storys and everyone would listen to me. then once I was done someone else would tell something and everyone would listen to them. Flash forward and I found that isnt how conversations work. My teacher interrupted me when I was doing that. I was talking about a really nerdy repair thing I did that sounds so nerdy now that I think of it. and forcefullly moved me out of the conversation as well as saying to everyone in the class that im "attention seeking." and I had to awkardly sit there as everyone stared at me for trying to tell a very long story and have everyone pay attention to me like I was fixing to be the center of attention(whats wrose is that we had just gotten into middle school so this was there first impression of me). this happened multiple times during the beginning of the year and I think to this day it has stuck with me. I remember being ashamed like really ashamed. That thought of me talking about something so nerdy trying to be at the center of the conversation like I was a streamer and they were the audience listenting to me rather than me talking and then someone else talks has made me self concious about everything I do. I dont play games like fallout new vegas when my parents are in the same room not because they dont let me play rated m games. But because it looks "cringey and a mindless shooter" at first glance and my self counsius wont allow me to play it while there in the same room. I remember playing a lego game on the tv and when my parents came in I forcefully turned it off because I did not want them to think of me as playing a game for children. Hell I hesitate to play minecraft on the tv when they are around because it looks "nerdy and childish". Whenever there is a loud music sequence on the tv I turn the volume down to zero in shame because it sounds "childish and nerdy" because of how self consious I am. And I think it can stem back to that one situation.


I sometimes see youtube videos of nerds explaining obsecure shit that if I explained to my friends they would most likely say "who cares" and id feel ashamed for a few days from cringe. Whenever I see this stuff and my mom walks into my room I would forcefully shut it off(https://ww(space) w.you (space) tube.com/watch?v=EZV0cJnIZTY). If I sent that video to my mom I would probally kill myself from cringe and embarsement. I cringe watching videos like that in a way I cant explain. I envy nerds who can talk about obsecure nerd stuff and not care at all. But I also feel bad for all the looks they must get and I could never do something like that.

The emotional mind is improperly programmed and is not in conformity with reality. Many such cases. Sad!
This is also how a lot of fetishes are developed. Basically one (1) experience or pattern in childhood or adolescence makes an impact on the mind and the brain somehow interprets that as a sexual stimulus. Of course this case isn't sexual but I saw a similarity.
Also somewhat related is that seeking the approval or respect of others or trying to please people is one of THE worst habits to adopt. The only entity who's approval you have to win is God. The atmosphere of the world is spiritually poisonous. Going with the flow ends you up in the sea, not on mountain-tops.
I hope you recover.

The sound of vacuum cleaners

Explain.

 

[NT]

Explain.

They're obnoxiously loud for what they are and I've read that the companies make them loud on purpose to seem powerful.

 

[Soynic Hedgehog]

Spergcore media I am not into

 

[ScienceHaterxxx]

Tsmt. It's a contradiction in terms.

The emotional mind is improperly programmed and is not in conformity with reality. Many such cases. Sad!
This is also how a lot of fetishes are developed. Basically one (1) experience or pattern in childhood or adolescence makes an impact on the mind and the brain somehow interprets that as a sexual stimulus. Of course this case isn't sexual but I saw a similarity.
Also somewhat related is that seeking the approval or respect of others or trying to please people is one of THE worst habits to adopt. The only entity who's approval you have to win is God. The atmosphere of the world is spiritually poisonous. Going with the flow ends you up in the sea, not on mountain-tops.
I hope you recover.

Explain.

There is two parts of your brain. the left controls your logical thinking and reasoning. the right controls your emotions and hormones. The right part of your brain does not think logically like the left and cant communicate with it. And as such you can feel scared at places where you know your in no danger(a rollarcoaster or a doctors trip). You get horny at things your ashamed of, and you feel shame at things you logically shouldn't. That is my analogy on things anyway. TLDR:you are only half in control of your body, the other half is hormones and emotions that control you

 

[AR47]

There is two parts of your brain. the left controls your logical thinking and reasoning. the right controls your emotions and hormones. The right part of your brain does not think logically like the left and cant communicate with it. And as such you can feel scared at places where you know your in no danger(a rollarcoaster or a doctors trip). You get horny at things your ashamed of, and you feel shame at things you logically shouldn't. That is my analogy on things anyway. TLDR:you are only half in control of your body, the other half is hormones and emotions that control you

The rational and emotional mind can absolutely communicate and influence each other. It's just that it can be difficult. Otherwise we could NEVER change any habits, preferences or reactions.

Furthermore, as above so below, as below so above. This is not only an 'is' claim but also an 'ought' claim. God came to sanctify the whole human, not just its head. Thus you should have the emotional mind and rational mind in agreement, if possible. For example being angry at injustice or feeling disgust at evil is preferable. A lot of people think it's enough to just suppress bad habits and inclinations. But in my opinion, to be truly whole, you shouldn't even consider such actions. In this case your whole being is aligned. Don't live in contradiction.

Though in spiritual life you do have to contradict yourself constantly.

 

[KingofTheRing]

Monster Energy Drinks and the sound of carpet being brushed.

 

[Sagehardt]

Prolonged speeches

 

[AR47]

Prolonged speeches

Why?

 

[Sagehardt]

Why?

Case sensitive. If my interest is drawn towards said speech I’m all for it, though if it’s just some shitty lecture that I’ll forget about in 3 minutes then not.

 

[Goldy]

Why?

kys furfag chuds.life pedo

 

[AR47]

^obsessed

 

[Born2JakForced2NameTroon]

People who say "nigga" instead of nigger yet aren't black. They seem to think doing so makes it less racist because they're a tranny who still cares being racist.

 

[AR47]

People who say "nigga" instead of nigger yet aren't black. They seem to think doing so makes it less racist because they're a tranny who still cares being racist.

I alternate between nigga and nigger depending on the situation. And I don't care about not appearing racist. Do you think that's annoying?

 

[Ree Vannin]

People who say "nigga" instead of nigger yet aren't black. They seem to think doing so makes it less racist because they're a tranny who still cares being racist.

This. Also I HATE things like "tbh" and "imo". Just say what you think, insecure nigger, stop apologizing for your opinion.

 

[Steve]

Cinnamon colored cats, they just don't look right.

 

[Born2JakForced2NameTroon]

I alternate between nigga and nigger depending on the situation. And I don't care about not appearing racist. Do you think that's annoying?

Not really. saying "nigga" is popular with safe-edgy faggots and you can tell when it's one of them because a landslide of discord troonstone follows. Like they're specifically doing it because if they said nigger they won't get invited to the next vc dilation sesh.