Discussion Autistic hatreds
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Goldy
Formerly Sneedson
Goldy
Formerly Sneedson
@LordThrembo you sick twisted pervert.
LordThrembo
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EVERYONE IN THIS MOTHERFUCKER IS A CORDNIGGER FALSELY ACCUSING ME
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I think you're remembering it wrong. I believe he said it was when he wouldn't shower for a long time
I have a unhealthy obession of hiding my music tastes to my mom. just the idea of someone figuring out I listen to video game music or show soundtracks makes me cringe in a way I cant explain. There is nothing bad bout the songs. I just cringe thinking about it. even if I liked a normal rock song I would not tell my parents and hide it because the idea of my mom knowing I listen to rock makes me cringe. It sounds stupid when I explain it. 99% chance they would not give a single shit. I think I know what caused this to. Another thing i hate that autistic people do is be the center of the "conversation" and try to tell a story in front of everyone where noone talks instead of a normal sided conversation.
I think this can all stem from middle school for me. I went to a private school that was not that good. and I just finished elementry, this was like 8 years ago. Anyways as I grew up at lunch I always focused myself as the center of the conversation and I would tell storys and everyone would listen to me. then once I was done someone else would tell something and everyone would listen to them. Flash forward and I found that isnt how conversations work. My teacher interrupted me when I was doing that. I was talking about a really nerdy repair thing I did that sounds so nerdy now that I think of it. and forcefullly moved me out of the conversation as well as saying to everyone in the class that im "attention seeking." and I had to awkardly sit there as everyone stared at me for trying to tell a very long story and have everyone pay attention to me like I was fixing to be the center of attention(whats wrose is that we had just gotten into middle school so this was there first impression of me). this happened multiple times during the beginning of the year and I think to this day it has stuck with me. I remember being ashamed like really ashamed. That thought of me talking about something so nerdy trying to be at the center of the conversation like I was a streamer and they were the audience listenting to me rather than me talking and then someone else talks has made me self concious about everything I do. I dont play games like fallout new vegas when my parents are in the same room not because they dont let me play rated m games. But because it looks "cringey and a mindless shooter" at first glance and my self counsius wont allow me to play it while there in the same room. I remember playing a lego game on the tv and when my parents came in I forcefully turned it off because I did not want them to think of me as playing a game for children. Hell I hesitate to play minecraft on the tv when they are around because it looks "nerdy and childish". Whenever there is a loud music sequence on the tv I turn the volume down to zero in shame because it sounds "childish and nerdy" because of how self consious I am. And I think it can stem back to that one situation.
I sometimes see youtube videos of nerds explaining obsecure shit that if I explained to my friends they would most likely say "who cares" and id feel ashamed for a few days from cringe. Whenever I see this stuff and my mom walks into my room I would forcefully shut it off(https://ww(space) w.you (space) tube.com/watch?v=EZV0cJnIZTY). If I sent that video to my mom I would probally kill myself from cringe and embarsement. I cringe watching videos like that in a way I cant explain. I envy nerds who can talk about obsecure nerd stuff and not care at all. But I also feel bad for all the looks they must get and I could never do something like that.
I think this can all stem from middle school for me. I went to a private school that was not that good. and I just finished elementry, this was like 8 years ago. Anyways as I grew up at lunch I always focused myself as the center of the conversation and I would tell storys and everyone would listen to me. then once I was done someone else would tell something and everyone would listen to them. Flash forward and I found that isnt how conversations work. My teacher interrupted me when I was doing that. I was talking about a really nerdy repair thing I did that sounds so nerdy now that I think of it. and forcefullly moved me out of the conversation as well as saying to everyone in the class that im "attention seeking." and I had to awkardly sit there as everyone stared at me for trying to tell a very long story and have everyone pay attention to me like I was fixing to be the center of attention(whats wrose is that we had just gotten into middle school so this was there first impression of me). this happened multiple times during the beginning of the year and I think to this day it has stuck with me. I remember being ashamed like really ashamed. That thought of me talking about something so nerdy trying to be at the center of the conversation like I was a streamer and they were the audience listenting to me rather than me talking and then someone else talks has made me self concious about everything I do. I dont play games like fallout new vegas when my parents are in the same room not because they dont let me play rated m games. But because it looks "cringey and a mindless shooter" at first glance and my self counsius wont allow me to play it while there in the same room. I remember playing a lego game on the tv and when my parents came in I forcefully turned it off because I did not want them to think of me as playing a game for children. Hell I hesitate to play minecraft on the tv when they are around because it looks "nerdy and childish". Whenever there is a loud music sequence on the tv I turn the volume down to zero in shame because it sounds "childish and nerdy" because of how self consious I am. And I think it can stem back to that one situation.
I sometimes see youtube videos of nerds explaining obsecure shit that if I explained to my friends they would most likely say "who cares" and id feel ashamed for a few days from cringe. Whenever I see this stuff and my mom walks into my room I would forcefully shut it off(https://ww(space) w.you (space) tube.com/watch?v=EZV0cJnIZTY). If I sent that video to my mom I would probally kill myself from cringe and embarsement. I cringe watching videos like that in a way I cant explain. I envy nerds who can talk about obsecure nerd stuff and not care at all. But I also feel bad for all the looks they must get and I could never do something like that.
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You'll get over it, don't worry, i hope you do since it's such a inconvinience in ur life (is that how you spell it?)
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