Project A glimpse into what could've been

Spasoje's Revenge said:
Funny thing, originally the idea was to debut this project as an adventure thread. The idea was to join the schlog, find someone who can help me with drawing, and finish the first level (or 2). Then make an adventure thread where 'teens choose their squad, mission, and make decisions in the mission. These choices would then be played out by me in the actual game demo.
But no, I don't think I'll be making any adventure threads.
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Fuck you for not contributing OC to the Sharty.
 
Spasoje's Revenge said:
Funny thing, originally the idea was to debut this project as an adventure thread. The idea was to join the schlog, find someone who can help me with drawing, and finish the first level (or 2). Then make an adventure thread where 'teens choose their squad, mission, and make decisions in the mission. These choices would then be played out by me in the actual game demo.
But no, I don't think I'll be making any adventure threads.
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Will you do an adventure thread on Sharty ever? If you don't wanna, I will give you some ideas.
 
Spasoje's Revenge said:
The creative process, a highway to misanthropy:
Condensed disaffection painstakingly formulated to make a whiff of sense
(wordswordswords incoming)


I have become really disaffected after premiering this project on the sharty. A point when my growing dissatisfaction wants to be let out. I felt like this project had a somewhat lackluster reception, but it was making a thread about it on the sharty that really sealed the sour taste in my mouth. Not because of a negative reception, but because of a LACKLUSTER reception. If the thread just slid without notice it would've honestly been par for the course, half expected. But rather, the thread got some replies. The only person I got to engage with was a guy saying he may have helped if not for an outside factor. That's the only real engagement, the rest of the half dozen replies were "GEMERALD PLEASE FINISH THIS" and "UP GEM!" and the like with random soyjaks attached (because of course, shit almost looked like I was samefagging). And even here, I crafted this in a way I thought deserving of some appreciation. Yet what did I get? 4 gem reacts and 7 likes and some meta discussion on the side and furry shitflinging derailment to go.

To go back, when I made the zellig school shooter game, what is basically a fucking tech demo, I got standing ovations. It had it's own board, it market the second highest PPH spike on the zarty to date, entry on the 'ki, uploads on youtube, it was used in other people's memes and edits, people actually wrote stuff about it. I got to read people's remarks, how they felt playing it, what they found the most interesting, people wrote reviews for it and I felt appreciated. I did not care for views or likes on youtube or newgrounds, but the comments. The fact that these people went out of their way to gather and articulate their thoughts showed a level of respect and appreciation that I found invaluable. It felt like actual people, actually engaging with my creation as thinking agents. But on the sharty it feels like a bunch of monkeys hooked up to a computer, just pressing gem and coal and waiting for the autoscroll to bring them the next serving of SHIT. And if anything attempting to be an effortful endeavor crosses their screen they just default to their programming, say GEM and queue the next serving of spammed SHIT. I mean this thread was reaching page 3 in minutes! It used to be the case that when something big happened the sharty would pause a bit, be it an adventure thread or some big news or a raid, now it just feels like a conveyor belt of feces. And from the people who liked it, how many contacted me? A grand total of FUCK ALL. My email was RIGHT THERE! "hey finish it but fuck you", did they not read the page where I asked for help? Did they not even read the post where I said I needed help? Who are these people???

People were only willing to engage with what I made on the most superficial level. I put in measurable effort into making a tangible atmosphere, adding muffled sound effects and conversations to convey a setting, a choice of music to fit, put my mind to intricately balance the satirical nature of the papers with the atmosphere, and no one even remarked on any of it!

I thought the papers were delightful! The first page has an article talking about declining soyteen birthrate, and right below it is an article about committing suicide to help climate change! That was an accident! When I noticed it I laughed out loud! I thought that for sure people would find that hysterical, setting my best foot forward I thought, but no one cared, no one noticed. No one cared about Dr. soystien "subduing" a patient and an autopsy being preformed on him in the next sentence, no one mentioned "ukranian minister of livestock", or zelensky's statement, or hunter bidens statement in the obituaries, the "/biz/ funds child solder's" which I thought was hilarious, and was inspired by a post on the sharty! And so was the article about american education, but no one asked and so I didn't get to share the funny posts and the funny fact that the articles were inspired by them. And the smaller jokes, like the "african-american homeland of subsaharan africa"? I thought that shit was gold! Or the ending with the juxtaposition of heartfelt music with soyak dancing and tranny acking. How about "VAZDA" (meaning truly in Serbian) being a parody of "PRAVDA"? But no one mentioned a SINGLE thing they liked about the project. No one bothered.

>attentionwhore much?
When I put effort into something I hope for a chance to talk about it, elaborate on the process and inspirations, it's a part of wrapping up the creative process in my opinion.
>you didn't even finish anything
I spent a lot of time with this project dwelling in my mind, it got an emotional stake in my heart even though a lot of it is unfinished so excuse the melodrama
>over dramatic much?
Sorry for the emotional vulnerability, I know it's out of line compared to my usual antics, just wanted to channel my thoughts into a coherent block of SNCA so I can let my mind rest.
>erm, xista, you made a gegbvll tier post
nah it's in character, trust

(This isn't targeted or directed at anyone in particular, in no way personal or blaming of anyone, just a piece of my mind)
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I get what you mean, when you spend time making something what you really want is what people actually feel about it not just spam some random babble saying is good because it just is.
 
ILoveCoals said:

/v/

soyzellig.party soyzellig.party
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gem that arrived too late to save the 'arty. i would have helped maybe but idk if i can draw in that artstyle i can only do pixel art right now due to my drawing tablet being broken again

also the zellig' game was fun until i shot coco and now i feel bad unironically
 
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Spasoje's Revenge said:
TL;DR: Imagine being an author of a book of a 100 jokes and you publish it at a local bookstore. What would you find more compelling, 4.5 star score at the bookstore and some review saying "good book, very nice" or some guy saying "BROOO THE 2nd JOKE ON THE 4th PAGE MADE ME PISS MYSELF LAUGHING!"

It just feels like I entered as a comedian, threw some of my best material into a bottomless pit and got no feedback

I'm not asking for anyone to humor me at this point, it's whatever and I'll leave it to rest, and yeah I'm done being soygoy. I'm hitting the sack, I'm exhausted.
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You know,there’s this one quote from a tv tropes ymmv page on scarface (1983) that said

>For all the vile things Tony does, one of his few acts of decency or even honest goodness is what leads to his downfall. In short...if you're going to play the game, you'd better be prepared to go all the way.

Not saying you should though…
 
Starbing_Artiste said:
also the zellig' game was fun until i shot coco and now i feel bad unironically
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I do love that the game managed to evoke real emotions despite how scuffed it can be at times. Also, you gotta thank Zoot for the death pose, I only gave her eyes a bit of a shake
Jacksonvalley said:
You know,there’s this one quote from a tv tropes ymmv page on scarface (1983) that said

>For all the vile things Tony does, one of his few acts of decency or even honest goodness is what leads to his downfall. In short...if you're going to play the game, you'd better be prepared to go all the way.

Not saying you should though…
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You're right, I had warped perception of an unfinished product due to how long I've been working on it. I'm sure it would've been better had I finished and released it sooner. So it is a bit of an uncalled for rambling on my part, just wanted to get it out of my system.
 
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