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I finally made a shake that isn’t thick, doesn’t taste like shit, and doesn’t use expensive mass gainer
1500 cals and 95 grams of protein is insane
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Short(?) rant for the night
I fucking hate being alone. Everyone I care about cut me off and every day I feel so fucking isolated and lazy. I can’t even sleep right without having visions of her. I had her ripped from my life and my friends walked out on me shortly afterwards. I don’t mean to sound edgy or corny but everyone I loved left my life and I have nothing anymore. I got my house and a stable household but that’s all I really have. I know things could be worse but I’m having nightmares every fucking night and the visions of her won’t ever leave my head. I don’t text people back for days because I’m too busy thinking about how to finally get it all together but knowing how I am I know I’ll never really be what I was before. I’ll never have that huge smile I had before. I still have a smile on my face sometimes but not as much since what I had left of my friend group decided to fucking leave me to suffer alone. Life was tolerable because they were around to make me laugh and smile but they’re not around anymore. Shit sucks but I’ll push through it like I always do. I can handle being alone but it’s a matter of how much time I have before shit gets really bad. Maybe I’m just having an episode or some shit but I’ve felt this way since they decided to leave
 
doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe said:
Short(?) rant for the night
I fucking hate being alone. Everyone I care about cut me off and every day I feel so fucking isolated and lazy. I can’t even sleep right without having visions of her. I had her ripped from my life and my friends walked out on me shortly afterwards. I don’t mean to sound edgy or corny but everyone I loved left my life and I have nothing anymore. I got my house and a stable household but that’s all I really have. I know things could be worse but I’m having nightmares every fucking night and the visions of her won’t ever leave my head. I don’t text people back for days because I’m too busy thinking about how to finally get it all together but knowing how I am I know I’ll never really be what I was before. I’ll never have that huge smile I had before. I still have a smile on my face sometimes but not as much since what I had left of my friend group decided to fucking leave me to suffer alone. Life was tolerable because they were around to make me laugh and smile but they’re not around anymore. Shit sucks but I’ll push through it like I always do. I can handle being alone but it’s a matter of how much time I have before shit gets really bad. Maybe I’m just having an episode or some shit but I’ve felt this way since they decided to leave
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if they were good friends, they'll try to understand you instead of leaving you for stupid reasons.
 
doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe said:
Short(?) rant for the night
I fucking hate being alone. Everyone I care about cut me off and every day I feel so fucking isolated and lazy. I can’t even sleep right without having visions of her. I had her ripped from my life and my friends walked out on me shortly afterwards. I don’t mean to sound edgy or corny but everyone I loved left my life and I have nothing anymore. I got my house and a stable household but that’s all I really have. I know things could be worse but I’m having nightmares every fucking night and the visions of her won’t ever leave my head. I don’t text people back for days because I’m too busy thinking about how to finally get it all together but knowing how I am I know I’ll never really be what I was before. I’ll never have that huge smile I had before. I still have a smile on my face sometimes but not as much since what I had left of my friend group decided to fucking leave me to suffer alone. Life was tolerable because they were around to make me laugh and smile but they’re not around anymore. Shit sucks but I’ll push through it like I always do. I can handle being alone but it’s a matter of how much time I have before shit gets really bad. Maybe I’m just having an episode or some shit but I’ve felt this way since they decided to leave
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study philosophy
 
doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe said:
Short(?) rant for the night
I fucking hate being alone. Everyone I care about cut me off and every day I feel so fucking isolated and lazy. I can’t even sleep right without having visions of her. I had her ripped from my life and my friends walked out on me shortly afterwards. I don’t mean to sound edgy or corny but everyone I loved left my life and I have nothing anymore. I got my house and a stable household but that’s all I really have. I know things could be worse but I’m having nightmares every fucking night and the visions of her won’t ever leave my head. I don’t text people back for days because I’m too busy thinking about how to finally get it all together but knowing how I am I know I’ll never really be what I was before. I’ll never have that huge smile I had before. I still have a smile on my face sometimes but not as much since what I had left of my friend group decided to fucking leave me to suffer alone. Life was tolerable because they were around to make me laugh and smile but they’re not around anymore. Shit sucks but I’ll push through it like I always do. I can handle being alone but it’s a matter of how much time I have before shit gets really bad. Maybe I’m just having an episode or some shit but I’ve felt this way since they decided to leave
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who is her
 
doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe said:
Short(?) rant for the night
I fucking hate being alone. Everyone I care about cut me off and every day I feel so fucking isolated and lazy. I can’t even sleep right without having visions of her. I had her ripped from my life and my friends walked out on me shortly afterwards. I don’t mean to sound edgy or corny but everyone I loved left my life and I have nothing anymore. I got my house and a stable household but that’s all I really have. I know things could be worse but I’m having nightmares every fucking night and the visions of her won’t ever leave my head. I don’t text people back for days because I’m too busy thinking about how to finally get it all together but knowing how I am I know I’ll never really be what I was before. I’ll never have that huge smile I had before. I still have a smile on my face sometimes but not as much since what I had left of my friend group decided to fucking leave me to suffer alone. Life was tolerable because they were around to make me laugh and smile but they’re not around anymore. Shit sucks but I’ll push through it like I always do. I can handle being alone but it’s a matter of how much time I have before shit gets really bad. Maybe I’m just having an episode or some shit but I’ve felt this way since they decided to leave
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killing yourself is gay btw
so don't do that, living is keyed and aryan [wholesome]
 
doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe said:
Short(?) rant for the night
I fucking hate being alone. Everyone I care about cut me off and every day I feel so fucking isolated and lazy. I can’t even sleep right without having visions of her. I had her ripped from my life and my friends walked out on me shortly afterwards. I don’t mean to sound edgy or corny but everyone I loved left my life and I have nothing anymore. I got my house and a stable household but that’s all I really have. I know things could be worse but I’m having nightmares every fucking night and the visions of her won’t ever leave my head. I don’t text people back for days because I’m too busy thinking about how to finally get it all together but knowing how I am I know I’ll never really be what I was before. I’ll never have that huge smile I had before. I still have a smile on my face sometimes but not as much since what I had left of my friend group decided to fucking leave me to suffer alone. Life was tolerable because they were around to make me laugh and smile but they’re not around anymore. Shit sucks but I’ll push through it like I always do. I can handle being alone but it’s a matter of how much time I have before shit gets really bad. Maybe I’m just having an episode or some shit but I’ve felt this way since they decided to leave
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Apologies if you've already mentioned this, but do you think it's clinical PTSD? I don't know your full situation but maybe you could see a trained professional instead of a generic therapist. I wish you the best.
 
Soyteen Liker said:
Apologies if you've already mentioned this, but do you think it's clinical PTSD? I don't know your full situation but maybe you could see a trained professional instead of a generic therapist. I wish you the best.
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ur right it does actually sound like ptsd
 
doedoedoedoedoedoedoedoe said:
the violent thoughts I have won't fucking go away and every time I'm about to finally give up on pretending to be tolerant and calm I don't get pushed further. I got fucking yelled and laughed at by my """"friends"""" for having a different opinion on gun control and I swear to God if they push me further I am going to kill somebody or at the very least seriously harm someone fuck I hate people so much why can't I live alone in the woods I'd be much better off that way than being around people who think I'm a joke
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You need to block your """friends""" and kick them out of your life.
 
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