Discussion Which shlog user is most likely to be a closeted homosexual?

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[Nihilma]

I don't.

ngl but you guys...

Ironically this was one of the better places to choose when I'm online but slowly starting to realize that the site is full of people who complain or always reply with snappy oneliners, not giving any thought to any of their comments and barely contributing anything to the site in general. Apart from here I have nowhere else to go honestly. I hate trannies, I hate mainstream media, I am a chud, but unfortunately doesn't seem like I fit in too well with the chuds anymore unfortunately so if I left this place I would literally have nowhere else to go.

I guess you meant combat?

I don't see why however. Most churches are full with old people and having autism, I'll just be sat there thinking about some videogame, completely ignoring all the random shit the pastor is saying, which is essentially SNCA.

Also SNCA, I don't need to read this bigass book that tells me how the world works, I kind of already get the gist of it.

Judging by how things are nowadays, I'd rather not do this actually.

You're gay? Okay, geg. Well your problems aren't really my problems, I do get that people can project themselves onto others, your advice works more for you than it does for me.
Social spaces don't really exist anymore, it's not like the 80s or the 90s or whatever, you can't walk outside and see the youth on the streets because they're all on their phones or inside on their computers, even then, it's rude to talk to strangers for no reason. People who are outside are often outside because they have somewhere to be, that's why they're walking, they walk to get there, going up to someone just to talk to them will only inconvenience them. You also can't really go to bars or anything like that anymore, there aren't any young people like me anywhere really, apart from the ones that walk because they have places to be.

The young people that are, are well, scary, overly attractive women showing off their midriff and a group of rowdy boys all in a group. Everyone has already found their social circle and I guess if you don't have that leaving school then you're just screwed. Sure I could get a job, but what kind of person gets a job for the socialization aspect. I'm not having my mother drive me for miles away from my home to some crappy retail store or whatever just so I can stack shelves and be at the cashier and then have that count as my "socialization" even though I'll still have no friends and I certainly won't take the long and arduous task of transporting myself from one place to another for probably hours just to do that either. Jobs are good for money, I don't see them as viable socialization options.

As an autist, it often feels like I need to be given permission to talk to people, attempting to talk to people often gives me that weird silence and people don't respond like I'm not supposed to be talking, like they already have their friend group which I guess I'm just not allowed to be a part of. I think when you view the world from my eyes things become a lot more clearer. There is no friend making, no socializing, no gfs, no bfs, there is no sexuality, there is no romance, there is only you at the end of the day.

One liners are usually sufficient for a lot of people to get out of their bed and clean their rooms or however Jordan Peterson bla bla bla. Most people have their problem starting right then and there.

And to extend this answer, this applies to your spiritual / social life as well. As an autist, you can have the cleanest room in the dorm yet still have the messiest spiritual and social life.

And I don't consider the internet to provide the fullest extent of a satisfying and healthy social life, most people have just admitted defeat to real life and accepted their fates as NEET, but this is just a symptom of the problem I'm mentioning here.

Church isn't just about the people, it's about the spiritual life and God. If you don't believe in God, that's already a problem in my eyes. But having a connection to Him is the most important part of social life imo.
Then, it also allows you to speak to people, and especially to the right kind of girls. Talking to girls online is tarded, girls of the world are indeed degenerates nowadays. Church girls mostly aren't.

And this links to your final paragraph.
I'm not gay, I used to be, thankfully never gave in. Came from my fear of girls and lack of social contact. You are right about social spaces, except again : Church. This is where I get most of my social life outside family nowadays. Church and christian groups. It's safe and traditionnal, sure most are a bit on the 'tism side of things but they're fine and more grounded in reality than most people of our day and age. They're different from the people of the world because they have different values, and this can offput a lot of people. But fundamentally, they're more balanced than us.

 

[King of kyrgyzstan]

One liners are usually sufficient for a lot of people to get out of their bed and clean their rooms or however Jordan Peterson bla bla bla. Most people have their problem starting right then and there.

And to extend this answer, this applies to your spiritual / social life as well. As an autist, you can have the cleanest room in the dorm yet still have the messiest spiritual and social life.

And I don't consider the internet to provide the fullest extent of a satisfying and healthy social life, most people have just 1dmitted defeat to real life and accepted theur fates as NEET, but this is just a symptom of the problem I'm mentionning here.

Church isn't just about the people, it's about the spiritual life and God. If you don't believe in God, that's already a problem in my eyes. But having a connection to Him is the most important part of social life imo.
Then, it also allows you to speak to people, and especially to the right kind of girls. Talking to girls online is tarded, girls of the world are indeed degenerates nowadays. Church girls mostly aren't.

And this links to your final paragraph.
I'm not gay, I used to be, thankfully never gave in. Came from my fear of girls and lack of social contact. You are right about social spaces, except again : Church. This is where I get most of my social life outside family nowadays. Church and christian groups. It's safe and traditionnal, sure most are a bit on the 'tism side of things but they're fine and more grounded in reality than most people of our day and age. They're different from the people of the world because they have different values, and this can offput a lot of people. But fundamentally, they're more balanced than us.

Unrelated but when you were trans how did you family feel and did have a partner during that phase?

 

[Nihilma]

Not everything has to be spiritual or religious, but I suppose we can agree to disagree on that.
Despite that, I'd rather focus on being with nature than to be around humans, who time and time again prove themselves to be ungrateful SLFs. I'm not talking about you when I say that obviously, I just mean society in general, they are all SLFs who expect you to do things for them just because they say so and give you barely anything in return, in this world, I feel no sense of belonging, I feel like I must exist to oppose the norm in some way and every community I am put into, I am hated for extremely arbitrary reasons, all I want to do is fit in of course, but it's like other people have to make that harder, like you can't just fit in, so we'll have to give you challenges to make sure you can keep up with the hirearchy of the group, if that makes any sense.

I suppose in an animal's way of thinking, that makes sense. But for someone like me, can't we all just be friends? Why is that so hard?
Well, if anything, I've seen Chris Chan and I would rather be completely alone than have fake friends assigned to me which is probably exactly what happened to me in school GEG. Wouldn't even be surprised. Someone like me was just born to be this way, destined to be this way, lone wolves exist for some reason, some purpose. We are constantly faced with challenges and obstacles from mainstream society, if anything, we're probably destined for greatness but we just don't know it yet. Society might come beckoning back to us when they realize just how poorly they've mistreated us, once we invent something or provide something they probably actually need. The likelyhood of that happening could be low, but that's only if you let it be low, if you want to succeed, you need to have the mindset, it's the demoralizers trying to take away that mindset with pessimism, as if they were planted by the CIA to make you unproductive and keep you consuming, but that's complete schizobabble, horrible people are just horrible people. Scorpion and the Fox.

You think and talk like a monk, see the world like a monk except you take God away from the equation.

Sure, we can agree to disagree on the spiritual stuff, we always can. But it's a big disagreement

 

[Nihilma]

Unrelated but when you were trans how did you family feel and did have a partner during that phase?

>Implying they knew

 

[King of kyrgyzstan]

>Implying they knew

You answered only half of my question...

 

[Nihilma]

You answered only half of my question...

Mb I did not read the rest of your question correctly lol.
No I did not, as said I thankfully never "gave in" if you catch my drift.

 

[Drvzwig]

Hamas_2 ofc

 

[King of kyrgyzstan]

Mb I did not read the rest of your question correctly lol.
No I did not, as said I thankfully never "gave in" if you catch my drift.

Awesomesauce.

 

[Soygoy]

You think and talk like a monk, see the world like a monk except you take God away from the equation.

Sure, we can agree to disagree on the spiritual stuff, we always can. But it's a big disagreement

Well, in Buddhism, there is no God, is there? There's Buddha, but he's more like the founder than a great creator.

If you don't believe in God, that's already a problem in my eyes. But having a connection to Him is the most important part of social life imo.

The idea that I can't have a social life without God is quite toxic to be honest, that God is saying to me that I can't have friends if I am not friends with him, is like a toxic best friend who wants to monitor what kind of friends you have. I personally don't think that you have to be friends with God to be friends with others.

One liners are usually sufficient for a lot of people to get out of their bed and clean their rooms or however Jordan Peterson bla bla bla. Most people have their problem starting right then and there.

And to extend this answer, this applies to your spiritual / social life as well. As an autist, you can have the cleanest room in the dorm yet still have the messiest spiritual and social life.

And I don't consider the internet to provide the fullest extent of a satisfying and healthy social life, most people have just 1dmitted defeat to real life and accepted theur fates as NEET, but this is just a symptom of the problem I'm mentionning here.

Church isn't just about the people, it's about the spiritual life and God. If you don't believe in God, that's already a problem in my eyes. But having a connection to Him is the most important part of social life imo.
Then, it also allows you to speak to people, and especially to the right kind of girls. Talking to girls online is tarded, girls of the world are indeed degenerates nowadays. Church girls mostly aren't.

And this links to your final paragraph.
I'm not gay, I used to be, thankfully never gave in. Came from my fear of girls and lack of social contact. You are right about social spaces, except again : Church. This is where I get most of my social life outside family nowadays. Church and christian groups. It's safe and traditionnal, sure most are a bit on the 'tism side of things but they're fine and more grounded in reality than most people of our day and age. They're different from the people of the world because they have different values, and this can offput a lot of people. But fundamentally, they're more balanced than us.

I would say that to you, one of the most important fundamental foundations of your life is God, as for me however, even though I had that shit kicked into my brain when I was young, I really couldn't care for it. Churches are big and scary, they're full of old old people and there is barely any youth anymore because society has regressed thanks to technology, it's simply worth it more to them to watch 18 hours of Tiktok a day than it is to actually go to church, and even then, nobody seems to like to go to church either, seems like people go to church out of fear or out of dependence, i.e "We have to go to church because god says so and if we don't we'll go to hell"

For me, I have selective hearing and I'm not interested in God. The powers that are above me, I really could not care for. To go to a Church is quite literally to listen to shit that I don't care about and for what, the socialization aspect? I find your fixation on girls to be strange aswell, I personally don't even want to interact with them, I see no reason to do so, they're just weird.

From pretty much everywhere I've been, I've found no connection really, no people who are of my age, just old people and I kind of hate that, most of the youth is probably stuck inside just like me, perhaps and that is exactly why I rarely see anyone.

 

[King of kyrgyzstan]

This thread be like:

 

[Nihilma]

Well, in Buddhism, there is no God, is there? There's Buddha, but he's more like the founder than a great creator.

The idea that I can't have a social life without God is quite toxic to be honest, that God is saying to me that I can't have friends if I am not friends with him, is like a toxic best friend who wants to monitor what kind of friends you have. I personally don't think that you have to be friends with God to be friends with others.

I would say that to you, one of the most important fundamental foundations of your life is God, as for me however, even though I had that shit kicked into my brain when I was young, I really couldn't care for it. Churches are big and scary, they're full of old old people and there is barely any youth anymore because society has regressed thanks to technology, it's simply worth it more to them to watch 18 hours of Tiktok a day than it is to actually go to church, and even then, nobody seems to like to go to church either, seems like people go to church out of fear or out of dependence, i.e "We have to go to church because god says so and if we don't we'll go to hell"

For me, I have selective hearing and I'm not interested in God. The powers that are above me, I really could not care for. To go to a Church is quite literally to listen to shit that I don't care about and for what, the socialization aspect? I find your fixation on girls to be strange aswell, I personally don't even want to interact with them, I see no reason to do so, they're just weird.

From pretty much everywhere I've been, I've found no connection really, no people who are of my age, just old people and I kind of hate that, most of the youth is probably stuck inside just like me, perhaps and that is exactly why I rarely see anyone.

Buddhism can be broadly considered a hindu heresy, and Hinduism has many gods. But that's besides the point.

It's not so much that God won't allow you to have a good social life without Him, more so than we are inherently designed to be in relationship with Him, and if this fundament of social life isn't fullfilled, nothing can be.

Modern degeneracy stems from the constant indulging of humans into selfish pleasure, and modern media and entertainment falls into this category of pleasure at low cost. Modern social life is also a profuct of this, so going to Church and socializing IRL cannot be compared to this. The first is the cause of modern debauchery, the latter is the solution. That people don't "like" to go to Church is therefore understandable, who likes to run 10 miles each morning to lose weight ?

However, if you are truly not interested in God, that's your choice I respect it.
May you be blessed in your life still. But still think about it. A life of ascetism is worthy of praise, but think about it's goal.

Also, you're still rather young, as am I. Don't think of your life or your person as complete and your social life as set, that's a big error. Not saying you can know in advance how you can be in 2 to 3 years, but you can both play an active part in this evolution and also prevent yourself from comitting errors on the way.

 

[Soygoy]

I mean I've even actually tried to read the bible but I feel like some Christians need to realize that some people are just unconvertable, or as they like to put it "A lost cause"
There is nothing you can do to make me a Christian or religious for that matter, sure you probably could make me a Buddha so I can embrace the /calm/ lifestyle of doing what I like and not caring about what others think and actually being myself. There's a reason why "Just be yourself is the worst advice ever" is a thing people say and it's because this world is full of negative and nasty people, it's not just people on the internet, it extends to my family too.

My sister is always quick to bring up past mistakes perhaps in some attempt to own me in a social circumstance, I have no idea why she does it, but whenever I am wearing a shirt that I like or expressing myself a certain way or talking about something that I like, she is always quick to tell me to shut up and demean me, saying things like "You buy merch from YouTubers?!?! Uhh didnt you used to watch that Pyrocynical guy and he became a pedophile and a furry?" to the Pyrocynical part, she's right, but why is she using it as a point to demean me for simply engaging in wearing a piece of clothing from a YouTube channel that I enjoy?

This kind of behaviour extends outside of my sister and onto websites like this where I'm looked upon very negatively just for enjoying something like FPE or literally anything else, and when I try to fix that, I get people telling me to go back to normal and just continue to be autistic and be myself, so it's strange, it's like people don't want me to become a part of them, or rather, negative people in this world need a positive person to attach their negativity onto, as negative people being negative to eachother probably doesn't work out so well for them, it might even have something to do with the law of attraction. It probably does.

I suppose in that circumstance you can either let negative people affect you or simply ignore them and live a lifestyle worth living, one where you can truly be yourself.
If living in the social world means to change your personality constantly just to fit in and appease people, e.g becoming christian, hating certain things, hating certain people, liking certain things, liking certain people, becoming left wing, right wing, etc etc etc. then living in the social world is a life not worth living. People are SLFs, you can appease them but all that work can be toppled over like a jenga tower within seconds, so theres no point.

I'm done trying to change myself for the appeal and the approval of others, if you like me, then you like me, you don't have to make me a christian or get me to hate something that you hate or convert me to your way of thinking in order to "fix" me or like me. Perhaps that is exactly why I am hated, I do not fit in. But I was never destined to fit in. Why be at peace with others, if you cannot be at peace with yourself? If you cannot share what you are most passionate about with others, in fear of discrimination because what you like is apparently "niggercoal"?

To me, the most important thing in life is peace with yourself first, as long as you can be yourself around others, that is all that matters, which is why I am here. I naturally tend to have technological and creative interests and I am going to express them and share them whether people like it or not.

 

[RTErdogan]

Hamas_2 ofc

stop projecting

 

[King of kyrgyzstan]

I mean I've even actually tried to read the bible but I feel like some Christians need to realize that some people are just unconvertable, or as they like to put it "A lost cause"
There is nothing you can do to make me a Christian or religious for that matter, sure you probably could make me a Buddha so I can embrace the /calm/ lifestyle of doing what I like and not caring about what others think and actually being myself. There's a reason why "Just be yourself is the worst advice ever" is a thing people say and it's because this world is full of negative and nasty people, it's not just people on the internet, it extends to my family too.

My sister is always quick to bring up past mistakes perhaps in some attempt to own me in a social circumstance, I have no idea why she does it, but whenever I am wearing a shirt that I like or expressing myself a certain way or talking about something that I like, she is always quick to tell me to shut up and demean me, saying things like "You buy merch from YouTubers?!?! Uhh didnt you used to watch that Pyrocynical guy and he became a pedophile and a furry?" to the Pyrocynical part, she's right, but why is she using it as a point to demean me for simply engaging in wearing a piece of clothing from a YouTube channel that I enjoy?

This kind of behaviour extends outside of my sister and onto websites like this where I'm looked upon very negatively just for enjoying something like FPE or literally anything else, and when I try to fix that, I get people telling me to go back to normal and just continue to be autistic and be myself, so it's strange, it's like people don't want me to become a part of them, or rather, negative people in this world need a positive person to attach their negativity onto, as negative people being negative to eachother probably doesn't work out so well for them, it might even have something to do with the law of attraction. It probably does.

I suppose in that circumstance you can either let negative people affect you or simply ignore them and live a lifestyle worth living, one where you can truly be yourself.
If living in the social world means to change your personality constantly just to fit in and appease people, e.g becoming christian, hating certain things, hating certain people, liking certain things, liking certain people, becoming left wing, right wing, etc etc etc. then living in the social world is a life not worth living. People are SLFs, you can appease them but all that work can be toppled over like a jenga tower within seconds, so theres no point.

I'm done trying to change myself for the appeal and the approval of others, if you like me, then you like me, you don't have to make me a christian or get me to hate something that you hate or convert me to your way of thinking in order to "fix" me or like me. Perhaps that is exactly why I am hated, I do not fit in. But I was never destined to fit in. Why be at peace with others, if you cannot be at peace with yourself? If you cannot share what you are most passionate about with others, in fear of discrimination because what you like is apparently "niggercoal"?

To me, the most important thing in life is peace with yourself first, as long as you can be yourself around others, that is all that matters, which is why I am here. I naturally tend to have technological and creative interests and I am going to express them and share them whether people like it or not.

 

[Soygoy]

Also, you're still rather young, as am I. Don't think of your life or your person as complete and your social life as set, that's a big error. Not saying you can know in advance how you can be in 2 to 3 years, but you can both play an active part in this evolution and also prevent yourself from comitting errors on the way.

This, I do agree with however because we are always changing as people. We never really know what happens to us next.
I am a pattern seeing monkey however and the patterns I have seen have stayed with me throughout my entire life.

 

[Drvzwig]

stop projecting

this nigga....

 

[Nihilma]

I mean I've even actually tried to read the bible but I feel like some Christians need to realize that some people are just unconvertable, or as they like to put it "A lost cause"
There is nothing you can do to make me a Christian or religious for that matter, sure you probably could make me a Buddha so I can embrace the /calm/ lifestyle of doing what I like and not caring about what others think and actually being myself. There's a reason why "Just be yourself is the worst advice ever" is a thing people say and it's because this world is full of negative and nasty people, it's not just people on the internet, it extends to my family too.

My sister is always quick to bring up past mistakes perhaps in some attempt to own me in a social circumstance, I have no idea why she does it, but whenever I am wearing a shirt that I like or expressing myself a certain way or talking about something that I like, she is always quick to tell me to shut up and demean me, saying things like "You buy merch from YouTubers?!?! Uhh didnt you used to watch that Pyrocynical guy and he became a pedophile and a furry?" to the Pyrocynical part, she's right, but why is she using it as a point to demean me for simply engaging in wearing a piece of clothing from a YouTube channel that I enjoy?

This kind of behaviour extends outside of my sister and onto websites like this where I'm looked upon very negatively just for enjoying something like FPE or literally anything else, and when I try to fix that, I get people telling me to go back to normal and just continue to be autistic and be myself, so it's strange, it's like people don't want me to become a part of them, or rather, negative people in this world need a positive person to attach their negativity onto, as negative people being negative to eachother probably doesn't work out so well for them, it might even have something to do with the law of attraction. It probably does.

I suppose in that circumstance you can either let negative people affect you or simply ignore them and live a lifestyle worth living, one where you can truly be yourself.
If living in the social world means to change your personality constantly just to fit in and appease people, e.g becoming christian, hating certain things, hating certain people, liking certain things, liking certain people, becoming left wing, right wing, etc etc etc. then living in the social world is a life not worth living. People are SLFs, you can appease them but all that work can be toppled over like a jenga tower within seconds, so theres no point.

I'm done trying to change myself for the appeal and the approval of others, if you like me, then you like me, you don't have to make me a christian or get me to hate something that you hate or convert me to your way of thinking in order to "fix" me or like me. Perhaps that is exactly why I am hated, I do not fit in. But I was never destined to fit in. Why be at peace with others, if you cannot be at peace with yourself? If you cannot share what you are most passionate about with others, in fear of discrimination because what you like is apparently "niggercoal"?

To me, the most important thing in life is peace with yourself first, as long as you can be yourself around others, that is all that matters, which is why I am here. I naturally tend to have technological and creative interests and I am going to express them and share them whether people like it or not.

You being a christian or not has little to do with me liking you or not. I genuinely believe that a world without God and Jesus, and humans without Jesus and God are malfunctionning and can and will never properly work.

That's it. That's also the reason behind every "le bad" thing in the world.
About you and your 'tism, you're making too big a deal of this. Obsessing over 'tism is what got my childhood and teenagehood fucked up, now I'm trying to be normal, consider myself normal and surprise surprise I fit in and also bettered myself.

But wordswordswords I say shit, time and the world will teach you and me better than we both can each other. I spent more time on the internet this past hour writing here than I did the last week, and it's already showing on my mental state. It's poison. Not you ofc but you get my jist. We have to tame our brains, and words do a poor job at it without actions behind them.

 

[poom]

I don't mind basil, but bro gets pretty gay with some of his posts

Tsmt. Basil is definitely closeted or acts like a huge fag. No offence. @basil

 

[Soygoy]

I spent more time on the internet this past hour writing here than I did the last week

Moderator who barely moderates

now I'm trying to be normal

Trying to be normal is just such a useless endeavour in my opinion for reasons I've already talked about, but if it works for you, then good on you, I guess.

time and the world will teach you and me better than we both can each other

Time will tell, it always does.

 

[Nihilma]

Moderator who barely moderates

Trying to be normal is just such a useless endeavour in my opinion for reasons I've already talked about, but if it works for you, then good on you, I guess.


Time will tell, it always does.

My time might soon come yeah. Not leaving the website no never but yeah, I serve no purpose in here as a mod sadly geg. Idk what to make of it