It's just my interpretation of the site as a whole. When I first got here, things were simpler, nobody really cared, but the moment I started contributing, I started getting some level of respect, which slowly started to deterioate. The sparkles incidents among other things kept piling on and on and the community was constantly looking for more and more namefag drama, so I've pretty much just about had it at this point, to have so much drama that only goes away if someone like terrycrews is on the site or sparkles o algo. One of the reasons why I'm here is because I'm looking for a sense of community and belonging, and I didn't get that, I just have a group of people who hate me and like to troll me, atleast maybe like 2 people who do actually probably like me but they're in my "gooncord" so it doesn't matter. Even then, I fit more in there in a communal sense.
People are correct, however, this is an unserious shitposting website unfortunately, but it never used to be this way. The more users joined, the more it became like /soy/ and unfortunately, the culture has just kind of taken over. While I admit I'm wrong about a lot of things in regards to soy culture, ultimately a project like this, the CSS server, is not really mine to handle anymore. I don't see how the people who play on the server can expect to disrespect it's admin constantly and engage in drama with the admin and expect to have the server still. Nobody was considerate, nobody considered that if they constantly hurt my feelings over a long period of time that I obviously wouldn't provide for them anymore. To me this isn't really out of a nonsensical shock of the moment decision, it's a direct consequence of months of drama that sticks around to this day, not even serving as banter, but just more things for people to bully me with and talk to me without a shred of respect and after all of it, they still expect to leech off of me in some way, I've just about had enough of it.
It was fun while it lasted, at least. I'll still develop Schlog+ primarily for the features that I want.
You hosting it is a better idea imo, you can self host on your pc and shut it down when you don't need it, saves on money that way. Also you're a janny, or whatever, so you're better at doing it.
Game projects should be hosted by either baqqrih, Steve or DOLL or the admins in general, or just other users. Hopefully maybe you can take this as a lesson that if someone provides for you and you use their services, you ought to be a little bit nice to them. I'm really not here to engage in drama, so hopefully passing the torch onto someone else will end it for good.