"Wah, wah, wah." That's all I hear from you. You've given up God because you didn't get what you want from Him. You think you're superior to Him, to His divine will, because not everything is going just as you want. Everything is decided by Him, and you have to live with it. This is His planet, you blind fool. Where were you when He formed all from nothing, huh? Do you think you're on equal footing with your Master? You are to follow what He says. Or, just rot in hell, then. It's your choice. That's why you have the free will He gave you. "Ooh, wow, an ugly ogre from Indonesia! That'll surely give me so much more pleasure and joy than anything My Lord could give for my obedience!" You are a fool and a bastard, and that's all you ever will be if you continue this path, besides a charred, forver-suffering corpse, which will be your end result. Go ahead, then, go on that path, if you truly want and desire so much. The only thing you'll be desiring is divine mercy, eventually, and the only difference is if it'll, wisely, be right now, or, foolishly, if it'll be in hellfire. It's your choice.