I hate the feeling of elitism i get from most people online, maybe it's all in my head but I'm basically at rock-bottom on the totem pole and the only way I can make people happy is by compromising with them or letting them metaphorically stomp all over me. And even when I admit that I'm retarded or worthless or whatever, they just keep going and tearing me apart. Even just talking to people on like forums is a challenge, most of the time I get ignored or maybe a snarky reply or two that doesn't even address what I said.
Most of the time I consider myself "hyper self-aware" though if that's true I'm not doing a good job of utilizing it to my advantage. And when I talk to people about their personal lives, they're always doing better than me in some way... maybe they're going to a prestigious university, or they have a good job and they're rich, it's all so noxious with le heckin smug humor coated in 1488 layers of "irony bro" that I'm supposed to peel back.
I hate autistic people especially.
