Jobs of the Shlog

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i dont really want a job because none particularly stand out to me but it's probably possible for me to get one, just a matter of if i even want to get one
i dont think anyone asks themselves if they see themselves working at a tescos or something for the rest of their life, it probably just happens. if i need the money, i'll do it, but it's kind of funnier seeing strangers on the internet get mad at the fact that i'm not contributing to society or whatever even though what i do doesn't effect them in any way whatsoever and they'd still hate me for being an autist, job or no job.

i just don't really know what i even wanna do in this world to be honest, it becomes easier and easier everyday to lose the motivation to do things, i barely even have the will to play videogames or anything like that, i might just have to get used to taking a while to sit down and think and be content with just waiting or something, i can try and push myself but it's whatever. my mother says i make videogames and she says that like it's an achievement, but it's not really, i won't really be able to make something that's a success in my eyes or something that i can say is finished, really. i fear all of my projects end up being a good push to start and a slow but gradual drawback to a halt

hopefully i can make games that get good enough that even just 1 person buys it, i think the day that happens, the day i make something that 1 person buys on steam and gives me a steam review, i'll print it out and frame it or something, even if the review is negative. even if someone like hagon buys something i make and leaves a "shit game kill yourself" review after 0.0 hrs of playtime and immediately refunds it i will fucking frame that in a golden picture frame and have that on my desk.

one of the things im most scared of however is just having nothing ever happen, so many good ideas that i just didn't do because the motivation to do them just wasn't there. perhaps it'll be okay though, scott cawthon is a very old man and he didn't get his hit until like 40 or something? so it's definitely possible. hopefully like scott, i can have a backlog of interesting projects for people to look at, instead of just nothing.
 
my dream is to become a soulless lawyer normie NPC, grow old, retire at the ripe age of ~70 years of age and finally die the year afterwards when a negroid that barely managed to get their driving license runs me over.
 
just closed in on a new property.
 
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