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APPROVEDGood day warden nagolbud, forgive my incoherent mess of a text introduction thanks
norwegian chronically ill housebound 23 yr old here got progressively more and more ill during early years at school until i hit a wall and crashed and hit a wall where i collapsed and was unable to do anything except lay in bed eat drink and wipe my own ass condition was unstable but has grown more and more stable with the years and experience in how to live with it
im too adhd uneducated and autistic to have any sort of coherent writing structure
i feel like an autistic retard writing this
because when i try to think about how to introduce myself or write anything
my cognitive thought process shuts down and i cant focus my head goes blank
working on feeling more like a human
got really ill 10+ years ago and grew up living the lifestyle of an optimistic nihilist's wet dream
indulging in lower forms of hedonism all day every day which was unsustainable especially in regards to my chronic illness
stopped living like a complete degen 2-3 years ago before that more or less all my time when i wasnt bedbound slept avg 18 hours a day now its 16 went to playing vidya (dota) watching tonnes of youtube and anime rotting away in voice with gaming friends but last year i took a turn for the worse and started paying for the consequences of my earlier lifestyle
feel like thats more than enough background for now
been aware of 4chan for over a decade content appealed to me but not the format
so i didnt bother using it much although my online friend circles did
i find the idea of something reminiscent of 4chan but in a forum format attractive
hobbies i still partake in would be reading and listening to music mostly
interests are anime, literature, history, philosophy, psychology, sociology, anthropology, culture, tradition, language, global politics, and listening to music thats it at the top of my head
i am applying for entrance to your forums because this is the place on the internet or irl for that matter where people are the most open minded that i know of and im tired of not being able to be the only way i know how, candid authentic saying exactly what i think and how i feel.
i do not fit in to the '4chan' subculture that i percieve as being drenched in irony nihilism and bitterness. granted i have barely scratched the surface of it and i do not mean to generalize the entire userbase.
I tend to take words too literally and i am geneuine and honest to a fault
this is the only place i can think of where i can just be me without having to pretend in order not to get ostracized and i would love to recieve a chance at becoming part of this hideously beautiful community. Thanks greetings from me sondre also sorry for mistakes and whatnot and the unreadability of the text this shit took me around 100 minutes and its too cancer to make it look nice first time ive sat down to write anything since i was like 12-13 please be patient i have autism greetings from me Sondre
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