Sir Gemerald Bleu/Lee Clottson or whatever here. Former tripsister. Active as a janny during July 2023 to January 2024, fired without warning. First started using the Party in the first few weeks of 2022, and submitted my first janny application in December 2022. I need to get this off my chest.
Why do I even want to do this anymore? The single time of weakness as a janny in months where I needed support and cooperation it has been nonstop shitposting. It has been nonstop drawing lines in the sand. This is fucking completely the WORST experience I've had in this site. Thank you, thank you very much for the effort I put into this site, into this community, and instead this is how you've treated it. All it took was the slightest of banter in janny PMs for Root to delete my janny account and tell me to fuck off for being autistic.
I've always been loyal to the Party. I would describe myself as a prolific poster: I've used other boards besides /soy/ actively, I discussed, bumped and posted gems, I never used splinter sites or 'rd servers, nothing of the sort. I wanted to stick with the Party, regardless of how much of a shitshow it has become. But this kind of circlejerky bullshit? The moment I needed help to deal with this? Fuck you, fuck this, fuck Doll, Root and the mod team (for the most part. I did have some positive interactions with some jannies over PMs), fuck you all. You are not doing this for the community, you are doing this for your own egos.
So now that I'm no longer a janny, I want to be 100% clear about how I feel about the Party, as someone who has tried to make his best efforts to fix it. I want to be 100% clear about the hypocrisy, the double standards, the shit tier, fucking nonsensical "decision-making" that this site has been built on. This shit gets me so fucking mad. So much that I literally can't stay away from this shit site even if I've been 'nished. I want to be clear about the fucking autism and the hypocrisy I have had to deal with, having to make decisions about content with no fucking transparency, making sure to not piss off the wrong person, having to deal with the constant, shit-tier and completely inane fucking bullshit.
Even now, I still respect Froot and believe he makes the right calls. When discussing my failures as a janny that got me rather disrespectfully fired, he said I'd have to tape a soyjak to a car in order to become a janitor again. I refused, I wanted to do this the right way and talk away any concerns that may have been raised. Then he says I blew my chance. Fucking faggot.
The way that the janitor team was handled, in particular the way I was dealt with, was disgusting. The only jannies I have ever heard are decent enough, at least have some form of dignity and are at least sane people to be jannies, agree with my ideal of an improved Party, criticizing the mods. The site was never built on cooperation, on working together to improve it. In my eyes, it's been built on fucking pettiness. A fucking joke. I've witnessed first hand and it makes me feel fucking shit that these kind of decisions are based around egos, around the fact that there has always been clear favoritism towards certain jannies. Why the fuck is it that only a small clique can dictate everything?
On the subject of improving the Party, I view myself as a conservative, a reactionary. I describe this ideology as Briht Sootism, an idealistic view, one that seeks to restore the Party into the glory of the good old days that never really existed. In reality though, no faction has lost harder than 'jak purists in the history of the Party. Noone wants the Party to return to anything resembling what it was once. It has had a long history of dumb circlejerks and shitposting, the very foundation it was built on, that we all know it for. These are the people that run the Party now. For someone like me, who thinks he can change this place, who thinks he can actually make a positive difference to the site, this is something I've never been able to wrap my head around. There is a fundamental reason that the Party will never change: The people who run it will never listen to the people who want it to change.
I know that by making this post I might be ABSOLUTELY TANKING my chances of becoming a janny again, but I had to say it, even if I might be humiliated as a pathetic wannabe janny. I'm not leaking compromising info and I won't change my mind, and I still hope to see the Party shaped according to my vision. I like everything to run smoothly, in the exact manner that I prescribe. Like a well-oiled machine. Like a machine that will destroy any faggot who steps out of line. You know, like an authoritarian dictatorship. Like that. This is why I joined the jannies to begin with, for the chance to change the course of the Party, this is why I stayed. "DURRR POWER ATTRACTS CORRUPTED PEOPLE" To that I say it's a decadent liberal mindset but I'm not gonna get into that.
