Why am I the only retard in so many communities?

[ArmaLite]

I'll start by getting the most important thing out of the way: my IQ is in the high 90s. I got that score from an IQ test I took during my autism evaluation from my freshman year of high school.
To add some context, I'm mainly in communities centered around my interests. I'm into computers and Linux crap, aviation, some historical events (9/11 & Columbine), and video games (most of which are simulation-focused, for example Cities: Skylines and KSP).
>SHIT NOBODY CARES ABOUT ENDS HERE
I hate being the only retard in the communities I'm in. Not just online ones, real life stuff too. It feels like everyone else is "three-dimensional" and I'm "two-dimensional"; they have much more depth as people and usually possess a vast amount of general knowledge, while still being able to go on and on about their passions for hours. Meanwhile I only know surface-level shit even when it comes to things I've been fascinated by for a long time. As an example, I claim to be familiar with Linux and technically I've used it for over 4 years now. Yet I can't write a single line of code in any language and the only command line tools I know how to use (at a very basic level) are simple text editors and package management tools.
But back to what I was rambling about earlier: it feels like I'm always the dumb fucking retard in the group. People either dismiss my opinions or actively seek to rip them apart to show how I don't know shit and can't back any of my viewpoints. Whenever life achievements get brought up, they mention their master's degree and how they're eventually going to write a thesis and get a fucking PhD. Me? I took on-level classes throughout school and only plan to get an associate degree in I.T. crap along with some useless certifications.
Where are all of the midwits just like me? I don't want to sound pretentious, but it feels like I have a smart person's personality with a retard's actual mental hardware. Nobody else seems to feel the same, either.

 

[Brainstorm]

I'll start by getting the most important thing out of the way: my IQ is in the high 90s. I got that score from an IQ test I took during my autism evaluation from my freshman year of high school.
To add some context, I'm mainly in communities centered around my interests. I'm into computers and Linux crap, aviation, some historical events (9/11 & Columbine), and video games (most of which are simulation-focused, for example Cities: Skylines and KSP).
>SHIT NOBODY CARES ABOUT ENDS HERE
I hate being the only retard in the communities I'm in. Not just online ones, real life stuff too. It feels like everyone else is "three-dimensional" and I'm "two-dimensional"; they have much more depth as people and usually possess a vast amount of general knowledge, while still being able to go on and on about their passions for hours. Meanwhile I only know surface-level shit even when it comes to things I've been fascinated by for a long time. As an example, I claim to be familiar with Linux and technically I've used it for over 4 years now. Yet I can't write a single line of code in any language and the only command line tools I know how to use (at a very basic level) are simple text editors and package management tools.
But back to what I was rambling about earlier: it feels like I'm always the dumb fucking retard in the group. People either dismiss my opinions or actively seek to rip them apart to show how I don't know shit and can't back any of my viewpoints. Whenever life achievements get brought up, they mention their master's degree and how they're eventually going to write a thesis and get a fucking PhD. Me? I took on-level classes throughout school and only plan to get an associate degree in I.T. crap along with some useless certifications.
Where are all of the midwits just like me? I don't want to sound pretentious, but it feels like I have a smart person's personality with a retard's actual mental hardware. Nobody else seems to feel the same, either.

 

[DonutHole]

I'll start by getting the most important thing out of the way: my IQ is in the high 90s. I got that score from an IQ test I took during my autism evaluation from my freshman year of high school.
To add some context, I'm mainly in communities centered around my interests. I'm into computers and Linux crap, aviation, some historical events (9/11 & Columbine), and video games (most of which are simulation-focused, for example Cities: Skylines and KSP).
>SHIT NOBODY CARES ABOUT ENDS HERE
I hate being the only retard in the communities I'm in. Not just online ones, real life stuff too. It feels like everyone else is "three-dimensional" and I'm "two-dimensional"; they have much more depth as people and usually possess a vast amount of general knowledge, while still being able to go on and on about their passions for hours. Meanwhile I only know surface-level shit even when it comes to things I've been fascinated by for a long time. As an example, I claim to be familiar with Linux and technically I've used it for over 4 years now. Yet I can't write a single line of code in any language and the only command line tools I know how to use (at a very basic level) are simple text editors and package management tools.
But back to what I was rambling about earlier: it feels like I'm always the dumb fucking retard in the group. People either dismiss my opinions or actively seek to rip them apart to show how I don't know shit and can't back any of my viewpoints. Whenever life achievements get brought up, they mention their master's degree and how they're eventually going to write a thesis and get a fucking PhD. Me? I took on-level classes throughout school and only plan to get an associate degree in I.T. crap along with some useless certifications.
Where are all of the midwits just like me? I don't want to sound pretentious, but it feels like I have a smart person's personality with a retard's actual mental hardware. Nobody else seems to feel the same, either.

I can tell just by skimming this that you're a subhuman retard.

 

[DonutHole]

Seriously though don't focus too much on IQ. It's mostly pattern recognition which can be easily taught. Get serious about your life and you'll be fine. There are literal room temperature IQ tards that can accumulate knowledge

 

[ArmaLite]

Seriously though don't focus too much on IQ. It's mostly pattern recognition which can be easily taught. Get serious about your life and you'll be fine. There are literal room temperature IQ tards that can accumulate knowledge

Yeah, that's what I've always thought. I wonder if the autism adds some sort of "debuff" (for a lack of a better term) and makes me act/seem dumber than I really am. If I'm being honest I probably come across as someone in the low 80s (yes IQ isn't a perfect metric but shhh).
And you're very right about how I come across as a retard, I didn't notice it until now. I can talk and talk but none of my words have meaning. Information density, I guess?

 

[DonutHole]

Yeah, that's what I've always thought. I wonder if the autism adds some sort of "debuff" (for a lack of a better term) and makes me act/seem dumber than I really am. If I'm being honest I probably come across as someone in the low 80s (yes IQ isn't a perfect metric but shhh).
And you're very right about how I come across as a retard, I didn't notice it until now. I can talk and talk but none of my words have meaning. Information density, I guess?

>I didn't notice it until now. I can talk and talk but none of my words have meaning. Information density, I guess?
I did not get that impression. Sure it was a bit rambly, but you just made a point and gave examples. That has meaning.

 

[Soyteen Liker]

I don't want to sound pretentious, but it feels like I have a smart person's personality with a retard's actual mental hardware. Nobody else seems to feel the same, either.

The smart personality but average cognition is kind of like a "small fish in a big pond" ordeal, average IQ people tend to have certain personalities that are rarely ""nerdy"". FWIW you struck me as decently intelligent from our talks. You mentioned being in communities for these nerd interests, which is why you feel inferior to most people, you value these people's opinions, not the average personality and IQ people's opinions. The real solution to this is to broaden the types of people you talk to, but if it gets really bad, you could surround yourself with dumber people that still have something that makes them worth talking to.

 

[n9wiff]

This post proves that you aren't shallow at all

You might have communication issue or neurodivergence.