Shit No One Cares About My autoandrophilia/pooner urges

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How does it affect you then
Also how does it work
It's basically like, mundane stuff guys do and the way they think gets me giddy and nonsexually excited. Like the idea of being called a "young man" or "lad" or "boy" makes me smile. The closest thing to it being sexual is me getting enthralled over the idea of being a male gooner that can't stop jerking off. Something about that feels like something I really want to experience even if most guys think it's awful and shameful.

It makes me really want to troon out a lot of the time. It feels like I love a part of myself I can't really access and want to know him. If I'm being honest, the main reason I haven't isn't because I don't want to but because I live with my parents that would throw away my hormones and other boy stuff.
 
@Steve to not derail the other thread. It's *technically* not a fetish as being a man doesn't arouse me sexually but it's basically the equivalent of AGP in every other way
I've read your posts about your case here, honestly I don't know what to say really besides do some soul searching. You're a woman so recommending therapy isn't just a waste of time and money and you might figure something out.
 
I've read your posts about your case here, honestly I don't know what to say really besides do some soul searching. You're a woman so recommending therapy isn't just a waste of time and money and you might figure something out.
I've been trying to find a therapist actually but it's pretty difficult with my speech impediment + my mom usually wants to take over and talk for me so we need one that also speaks Spanish. I had a few other ones but they either encouraged me to troon out or I would come out of the appointment pissed off and upset. I don't quite remember why, my memory often purges itself.
 
It's basically like, mundane stuff guys do and the way they think gets me giddy and nonsexually excited. Like the idea of being called a "young man" or "lad" or "boy" makes me smile. The closest thing to it being sexual is me getting enthralled over the idea of being a male gooner that can't stop jerking off. Something about that feels like something I really want to experience even if most guys think it's awful and shameful.

It makes me really want to troon out a lot of the time. It feels like I love a part of myself I can't really access and want to know him. If I'm being honest, the main reason I haven't isn't because I don't want to but because I live with my parents that would throw away my hormones and other boy stuff.
You cant find that satisfaction in girl stuff?
What fuels the excitement in the moid stuff? Is it the taboo? A thrill of deceit? Or does it just feel uniquely rewarding?
 
I've been trying to find a therapist actually but it's pretty difficult with my speech impediment + my mom usually wants to take over and talk for me so we need one that also speaks Spanish. I had a few other ones but they either encouraged me to troon out or I would come out of the appointment pissed off and upset. I don't quite remember why, my memory often purges itself.
You need to be independent from your mom goose girl, she's not gonna be there to talk for you once its time for you to enter the real world. It sucks how modern med does try to troon people out though, in like 30-50 years we will see the "gender affirming" surgeries how we view the lobotomy now. I guess it makes money though so they don't need to be moral, and in the case of therapits, patients for longer.
 
You cant find that satisfaction in girl stuff?
What fuels the excitement in the moid stuff? Is it the taboo? A thrill of deceit? Or does it just feel uniquely rewarding?
Not really. I wasn't like the "I HATE wearing dresses" tomboy kid, but being a boy has always felt taboo and like "the other side", yeah. I remember once when I was little wanting to play with a monster truck vidya but it felt too manly for me so I decided against it. I don't know why I latched onto still seeing it as taboo even as a 19 year old. Maybe it's a fascination with boys too, I remember accidentally wandering into the boys bathroom line a lot before 3rd grade, only to be told "[Soyteeeen Liker] wrong line!" but maybe I subconsciously made that up. I feel like I still have a female ego but often want to "feel like a boy" doebeit.
 
I've been trying to find a therapist actually but it's pretty difficult with my speech impediment + my mom usually wants to take over and talk for me so we need one that also speaks Spanish. I had a few other ones but they either encouraged me to troon out or I would come out of the appointment pissed off and upset. I don't quite remember why, my memory often purges itself.
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OH MAH GAWD IT'S JUST LIKE THE AUTISTIC GIRL OF MY DREAMS THAT I SEE IN ALL OF MY FAVORITE HECKING JAPANESE ANIME!
 
Not really. I wasn't like the "I HATE wearing dresses" tomboy kid, but being a boy has always felt taboo and like "the other side", yeah. I remember once when I was little wanting to play with a monster truck vidya but it felt too manly for me so I decided against it. I don't know why I latched onto still seeing it as taboo even as a 19 year old. Maybe it's a fascination with boys too, I remember accidentally wandering into the boys bathroom line a lot before 3rd grade, only to be told "[Soyteeeen Liker] wrong line!" but maybe I subconsciously made that up. I feel like I still have a female ego but often want to "feel like a boy" doebeit.
Buy a plastic tube, go to a men’s bathroom, and pee in the urinal, no shame
Then you will realize being a moid sucks and you will ditch the obsession
 
I've been trying to find a therapist actually but it's pretty difficult with my speech impediment + my mom usually wants to take over and talk for me so we need one that also speaks Spanish. I had a few other ones but they either encouraged me to troon out or I would come out of the appointment pissed off and upset. I don't quite remember why, my memory often purges itself.
Are you a spic?
 
Peeing in a urinal is only one facet of being a boy doebeit
Uhh get your finger cut off in a construction accident
Uhm buy a gun(.22 lr for your strength) and shoot yourself somewhere nonfatal
Uhhhhmmmmm put a needle in your anus and pretend the pain is from prostate cancer
 
It's basically like, mundane stuff guys do and the way they think gets me giddy and nonsexually excited. Like the idea of being called a "young man" or "lad" or "boy" makes me smile. The closest thing to it being sexual is me getting enthralled over the idea of being a male gooner that can't stop jerking off. Something about that feels like something I really want to experience even if most guys think it's awful and shameful.

It makes me really want to troon out a lot of the time. It feels like I love a part of myself I can't really access and want to know him. If I'm being honest, the main reason I haven't isn't because I don't want to but because I live with my parents that would throw away my hormones and other boy stuff.
Just do all those things except the hormones then dude, simple as
 
why have all of u like.. experienced this

rlly hypocritical tbh
 
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