Former Reddit-Tier Atheist AMA

[1844 or something]

I grew up believing that God was always watching me, and back then it helped me stay honest and avoid things that i knew where wrong.
Around age 12, i realized i like whacking it, and I ended up denouncing God because i wanted to believe that none of my cravings would have a consequence.
Spent 6 years ruining my life after that, thinking that nothing at all mattered and that i should just maximize pleasure (oh my science)
as of today, i don't know what i believe. I believe that "God" just wants to keep me from ruining my life or destroying others (and when i was "atheist" i didn't give a fuck about either)

 

[Weebhunter3000]

So you are Agnostic now?

 

[1844 or something]

I believe in God as more of an internal thing now, i guess. I go back and forth with whether he's an entity or just my own instinct. But i feel that my shame when I'm fucking up is God's disappointment, or the joy i feel when I'm with my family is His blessing. I don't think God is something that can prevent a physical happening like famine, but i believe that God is what allows us to come together and find the empathy to get eachother through all the random tragedy that we face

 

[1844 or something]

Also, I'm kinda schizo: if something horrible happens in my life after I've been selfish and careless, i sometimes see it as divine intervention punishing me. Again, i realize this is crazy, but it helps keep me on track and hasn't negatively impacted me, so I don't really care to disprove it.
And prayer helps too. I can lie to myself all i want, but when I'm praying it makes me objectively look at my life. If i try "lying" during prayer i immediately feel like I've been caught

 

[Spas]

Also, I'm kinda schizo: if something horrible happens in my life after I've been selfish and careless, i sometimes see it as divine intervention punishing me

It really does sometimes feel like the misfortune that befalls us is in some ironic way connected to our previous transgressions. I recall someone saying God loves irony, I believe that.

 

[SoytanEnthusiast]

Do you still wank now? Or have you repented and stopped?

 

[1844 or something]

I recall someone saying God loves irony, I believe that.

I definitely feel that as well.

Do you still wank now? Or have you repented and stopped?

I do very rarely, but don't watch porn. My view on it has changed completely, also. I used to obviously hype up my whack sessions, and now when i jerk-off I immediately feel gross and think of everything else i can be doing.

 

[Nihilma]

Your current stance on God, which seems to me to be a very popular stance nowadays, meaning one of confusion rising from the battle between the instinct of God's existence and the modern Godless culture which teaches that God doesn't exist is a very interesting thing to observe.
Idk where this'll lead on a big scale.

 

[1844 or something]

Battle between the instinct of God's existence and the modern Godless culture which teaches that God doesn't exist

I never really realized it, but you're right. Part of me still can't leave that Godlessness that was so real to me, and I think that's stopping me from really looking at my beliefs. I need to do some more searching.
It's very interesting to see people wake up to that instinct of a God and take steps towards understanding despite so much around them trying to convince them they're wrong (or even brainwashed/retarded/schizo)

 

[JC Denton]

But i feel that my shame when I'm fucking up is God's disappointment, or the joy i feel when I'm with my family is His blessing.

Eventho that's your brain producing science stuff because of experience passed down from generations

 

[Nihilma]

I never really realized it, but you're right. Part of me still can't leave that Godlessness that was so real to me, and I think that's stopping me from really looking at my beliefs. I need to do some more searching.
It's very interesting to see people wake up to that instinct of a God and take steps towards understanding despite so much around them trying to convince them they're wrong (or even brainwashed/retarded/schizo)

May God bless you in your search.

 

[WH15KeY]

I believe in God as more of an internal thing now, i guess. I go back and forth with whether he's an entity or just my own instinct. But i feel that my shame when I'm fucking up is God's disappointment, or the joy i feel when I'm with my family is His blessing. I don't think God is something that can prevent a physical happening like famine, but i believe that God is what allows us to come together and find the empathy to get eachother through all the random tragedy that we face

"I'm like, spiritual but not religious"

 

[1844 or something]

"I'm like, spiritual but not religious"

I don't know. I believe in God and judgment and even an afterlife. I feel more religious than spiritual and I'd never try to cop-out by saying "I'm just spiritual." I just dont think that the world is something God observes rather than controls, and that the "control" he has comes from influencing us to do good or helping us through pain from within.

 

[WH15KeY]

I don't know. I believe in God and judgment and even an afterlife. I feel more religious than spiritual and I'd never try to cop-out by saying "I'm just spiritual." I just dont think that the world is something God observes rather than controls, and that the "control" he has comes from influencing us to do good or helping us through pain from within.

I completely understand why you would feel this way. However... I just find it rather amusing when the "facts don't care about your feelings" lads suddenly sound like another group they hate when the topic of religion comes up.

I am genuinely trying wrap my brain around this phenomenon. How is "I feel like there is some being that judges us based on human morality and sends us to an afterlife when we die" much different than "There are more than two genders"

 

[istanbul]

I believe in God as more of an internal thing now, i guess. I go back and forth with whether he's an entity or just my own instinct. But i feel that my shame when I'm fucking up is God's disappointment, or the joy i feel when I'm with my family is His blessing. I don't think God is something that can prevent a physical happening like famine, but i believe that God is what allows us to come together and find the empathy to get eachother through all the random tragedy that we face

that's not what's taught in Christianity though

 

[1844 or something]

I am genuinely trying wrap my brain around this phenomenon. How is "I feel like there is some being that judges us based on human morality and sends us to an afterlife when we die" much different than "There are more than two genders"

I agree, which is why i don't go around trying to convert anyone or say It's irrefutable. I think trannies should have that same approach of "maybe I'm not a real woman, but this belief helps me get through life". I don't know what is real in the end, but what I believe helps keep me from being a selfish little fuck and hasn't had real drawbacks, so I'll keep it in my life.
As someone who nearly fell into the troon shit, i can say that the two don't compare. I was constantly lying to myself about my reality just to cope with the mistakes i made over a gross fetish, and i hated my own family for joking about it. Believing in God instead of ever having a womb motivated me and brought me closer to others. I'm not trying to say you're wrong, just offering an inside perspective on both situations

 

[WH15KeY]

I am not even certain most of these young right-wing men truly believe in God...

With their logical and fact based thought pattern, I should say it is an impossibility.

I believe you associate atheism with the straw-man that was constructed by conservative pundits (reddit-tier-atheist, I know you were being
tongue in cheek, but still) so you wish you know skirt on the edge of belief and non-belief. Most likely because you do not wish to be judged as an atheist, but feel you would not fit in or be able to comply with the rules of organized religion.

Truly, I do believe you can become religious after being atheist. You've already done too much thinking at that point. For those who claim they are born-again... I feel as though they are lying to themselves.

 

[WH15KeY]

I agree, which is why i don't go around trying to convert anyone or say It's irrefutable. I think trannies should have that same approach of "maybe I'm not a real woman, but this belief helps me get through life". I don't know what is real in the end, but what I believe helps keep me from being a selfish little fuck and hasn't had real drawbacks, so I'll keep it in my life.
As someone who nearly fell into the troon shit, i can say that the two don't compare. I was constantly lying to myself about my reality just to cope with the mistakes i made over a gross fetish, and i hated my own family for joking about it. Believing in God instead of ever having a womb motivated me and brought me closer to others. I'm not trying to say you're wrong, just offering an inside perspective on both situations

I totally respect that. This is just something I see pop-up in most right-wing spaces, and I must say it irks me at times.

I think some of you guys feel that religion will save the west somehow... Well, it won't. Half of the people pushing this cancer into the west are some form of religious themselves. While yes, there has been an increase in atheism (which I merely attribute the easier access to information) we are still a very religious country.

I would just make sure you are not changing a belief to fit in with others.

 

[WH15KeY]

Your current stance on God, which seems to me to be a very popular stance nowadays, meaning one of confusion rising from the battle between the instinct of God's existence and the modern Godless culture which teaches that God doesn't exist is a very interesting thing to observe.
Idk where this'll lead on a big scale.

Atheism is still not very popular...

Especially in regards to the USA. It is like you people have this imagined oppression in your head (Well, hahaha. That is the Christian mythology)

Godless culture? Are you referring to actual atheists, or just Christians who do not behave to your standard of morality?

 

[1844 or something]

Most likely because you do not wish to be judged as an atheist, but feel you would not fit in or be able to comply with the rules of organized religion.

You're completely right. I want to believe in God, but I haven't done much to actually get my shit together and fix the mistakes I made back then. I feel I'm too degenerate to step foot in a church, and instead of fixing that I just tell myself I'm healing. Then I go online and obsess over degenerates to prove I'm different.
None of that is religion. It's just cope.