Malesucker, you need to calm down, man.
You're spiraling right now. Take a deep breath and look at the big picture here. There's no need for all this. Youre a smart and kind boy and I know this deep down. Please prove me right Moidsexer...
If you wanna be trustworthy and seem competent to people you must always maintain direct eye contact and try to predict their next sentence in word mid conversation. Makes you seem more intelligent.