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I reached 180lbs a few weeks ago but with Ramadan all of the progress I pushed towards is gone. I worked so hard and invested so much effort into my fitness journey and got nearly nothing out of it because I was lazy and slacked off. I think that applies to a lot more things now that I think about it

This happens every year. I put on some weight, Ramadan starts, I lose like half of it, and I have to repeat the cycle. It's a nightmare.

I have a very serious problem where I do something or try to achieve a goal, I see someone do way better at it than me, and rather than be inspired I just sit back because why even bother at that point???

There's not much I do in my day-to-day. I wake up, I go to school where I talk to ONE person, I go home, I watch fitness content, nap, wake up, eat, and then either skip the gym due to genuine lack of energy or I do stupid schoolwork that I fucking hate doing. I'm good at it, I can cook up a good essay if i want, but that's the thing. I DON'T want to.

I have a genuine addiction to this website. I go online, I check the little red notification button, I make funny posts, wait and repeat. It's fucking tiring. I dislike a sizable portion of people on here because of how retarded some of you are but I stick around because I have literally no other choices for socializing.

>Everything you say is boring.

There's a concept in Buddhism about how unhappiness comes from unfulfilled desires & fear of losing what you have, and so the solution to that is to just let go and stop caring about those things. I know that seems like very obvious advice, but I really don't think a lot these problems are things you need to get so anxious over in the first place.