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So your AAP isn't sexually motivated?

Correct

Do you LARP as a man often in online communities?

Shave your armpits to make your AAP seethe

@Fortuna sometimes but it never feels like myself and its also kinda hard so I usually don't
@Stephen I do often because stimming makes me sweat a lot

"Stimming"? Can you elaborate on that? Do you exercise? Are you still actively LARPing as a man in communities? When you do that, do you just dodge the question of asking about gender (if it even comes up), or do you claim to be male outright?

We likerbutches are male lol

Stimming is when I rock back and forth a lot, autism thing. I don't really exercise much because my parents don't let me own a dumbbell over 5lbs. I haven't LARPed in awhile but I claimed to be male outright. To be fair the social aspects of being male are pretty rough.

Brimposting will continue until linespam ceases

You rock back and forth? When do you do this? How long do you do it for? How can you do it so hard that you sweat? Have you considered doing calisthenics? Are you overweight? What social aspects of being male do you consider rough?

@Soyteen Liker

I do it every day for hours. I have considered calisthenics but they hurt my muscles. I'm overweight. The aspects of being male that are considered rough are hard for me to elaborate on rn albeit, I feel like I've been on autopilot recently

Why do you rock back and forth every day for hours? Don't you get bored? Are you thinking at all during that time? Do you realize that muscles are supposed to hurt? How badly overweight are you? Have you considered you may be on autopilot due to your medication?

I don't know really, I think it's mostly to kill time. I am thinking but it's typically nothing of substance. The muscles hurt but they hurt for hours/days after I finish. I'm 152lbs 5'2 which is 27.8 BMI. Maybe it's the meds but my parents treat any emotion I have as something to medicalize.

Have you considered using your time more productively, such as reading a book? Can you elaborate on your thoughts during this? Are you aware that for the first few weeks of strength training your muscles will feel very sore for about 3 days, and that you feel less sore over time? Do you know the difference between pain and soreness?

(cont.) Have you ever considered going on a diet seeing as you are nearly obese? Do you know one of your medication's side effects is restlessness in terms of muscles? Have you considered not taking them?

Sometimes I read books but never in depth or actually finish them. I can't elaborate on my thoughts because my mind purges them after I'm done. I hate the soreness and can't really get past it.

I wanna go on a diet but my parents don't really give a shit and keep making/buying me goyslop. I can't go off the meds either because they're too high of a dose to just chuck in the toilet without experiencing crippling withdrawal

What books have you tried to read? Have you considered that the soreness will go away if you keep doing it, and that the pain is actually a good thing? Have you considered you don't need your parents permission to do a diet, and you can do it with anything you can find at home? Have you considered just doing it cold turkey or weening yourself off it slowly?

(cont.) What does your diet consist of currently? How many calories a day do you eat? Do you eat fast food? How about junk food?