Chud Sexual experiences with girls...

I've only ever had one that I had enjoyed and it was my first time, with my girlfriend one year ago, the rest of them were with vapid escorts trying to attain the "high" of the first time. Is that a common experience?
 
many women have been into me but they have stayed as friends because i have no sex drive and probably can't maintain an erection
 
I've only ever had one that I had enjoyed and it was my first time, with my girlfriend one year ago, the rest of them were with vapid escorts trying to attain the "high" of the first time. Is that a common experience?
Why buy escorts when u can just jack off? I mean masturbating isn’t good but from my perspective it’s much better than getting an escort
 
What are some you have had with women:

4chan chick:

Girl that was into me from 4chan's /soc/ board... she came onto me. I wasn't really into it at first because I wasn't looking for love at that time. She also felt super young to me, but she is only 1 year younger than me. I just got a very youthful vibe from her.

She says she'll be soaking wet and sends a paragraph on how badly she wants me. I am a little freaked out, but she lives some states away, so why not get some femanon coochie tbh...

She fingered herself to me over the phone. I didn't really get much from it because of the aforementioned reasons, but lol. I sort of got to see pictures of her boobs, but not really any good shots.


Anyways, I didn't really consider this a win. She turned out to be a bit of a mean girl, and I felt guilt for her seeming so young and having some... mental issues (I did too at that time, she played into that as well and seemed to want a toxic situation)

She broke up with me... I was upset, not sure why. She has a bf now, which is good for her, but lol. I don't know why she was so into me at first. BPD girls, I guess.


But yeah, she was a bully in the past too... so fuck her. tbh




PoF girl:


Nothing special here... She sent me a vid of her touching herself. Vids of her playing with her boobs. It was chill ig.

Fb dating girl:

She sent me a full pic of her boobs with her face in it.

I have posted no NSFW images, so I hope this isn't a rule breaking.
Why are straggots so obsessed with making up fake sex stories
 
unintimate sex with not very acquainted strangers displeases me
even if you did it with a female friend you've known for months and didn't really enjoy the experience it'd be better than hooking up with horny female strangers who openly talk about fingering themselves and show tit pics to you. for every male loser, i suppose there is atleast a female loser too, and these women don't exactly sound pleasant.

the aromantic volcel lifestyle might actually pay off, unless the perfect woman really does exist... no sex before marriage bros... can it still be done? is it still possible these days?
where are all those good old fashioned values in which we used to rely?
 
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anyways, i'm someone who values relationships with value and longjevity and also the exchange of important skills. the idea of getting a gf is not appealing to me unless she can provide me something that makes me feel a sort of psuedo-feeling of love, like idk like uh "omg you're so good at drawing, i love you!" or something like that. i guess thats how some girls feel when it comes to men with a lot of money "you're so rich, i love you!" the relationship has to be mutual so i have to provide something too.

but personally, i'm struggling, i wonder what "love" even is, if not hyper loneliness or sexual lust, is it just an abstract concept that doesn't actually exist? such a thing has confused me since birth. the only thing i know is that sex should only exist in a relationship where love is involved. maybe im too stupid or too smart to ever understand, or i just spent a long time without human contact, so i forgot entirely. or perhaps i've never known. but that sucks in my opinion, i'd like to get there one day, but ultimately, all i want is just friends. not gfs and sexmates.
 
anyways, i'm someone who values relationships with value and longjevity and also the exchange of important skills. the idea of getting a gf is not appealing to me unless she can provide me something that makes me feel a sort of psuedo-feeling of love, like idk like uh "omg you're so good at drawing, i love you!" or something like that. i guess thats how some girls feel when it comes to men with a lot of money "you're so rich, i love you!" the relationship has to be mutual so i have to provide something too.

but personally, i'm struggling, i wonder what "love" even is, if not hyper loneliness or sexual lust, is it just an abstract concept that doesn't actually exist? such a thing has confused me since birth. the only thing i know is that sex should only exist in a relationship where love is involved.
i have learned... a shocking amount of things about you in the span of two days..
 
i have learned... a shocking amount of things about you in the span of two days..
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i have learned... a shocking amount of things about you in the span of two days..
feel free to start a convo with me and ask all the questions you like we can be friends maybe
im somewhat of an enigma, i don't exactly understand myself, i don't consider myself to be interesting, just a very strange entity. i base myself based off of what other people say and do and bounce off of that, so if you like drawing, i'll pick up a pen and a tablet and try to draw to get approval, etc. that's how i've always gotten along with people, theres nothing about me that personally makes me stand out or interesting, i'm really just a lost autist forever masking or trying to mask.

then there's love which i've never understood, i THOUGHT i understood it once, when I was extremely lonely, I thought I wanted a gf but in actuality all i wanted was a best friend or a friend, i dont like sex nor do I want it, but the idea of kisses and cuddles doesn't sound too bad, but now it sounds not desirable. idk, i miss having like a best friend, i guess, but a part of me wants to find myself and try to become a real person in a sense, try to get something like a hobby or something that makes me interesting

but... without other people, i have no passion. i only do things because of other people, im developing a game right now for my college, and im here because im lonely and i need something to cure my loneliness, and this website seems to do it. just having other people here to talk to about anything, i think it helps me find myself, because i cannot exist without other people and i think that's just the truth, i need people to motivate me and to inspire me to actually do shit and without them, i just have no support at all, i just feel like a nobody, someone who's not motivated to do anything, someone who just has nothing to live for.

i make these posts because idk, i hope people read them. hopefully i can stick around on this site long enough for people like you to notice me a lot more and eventually, we can be friends or something like that. if you wouldn't mind.
 
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